Kiss me through the phone,

Yes Camp 2009

2009-12-30T13:20:00.005+08:00

Yes Camp 17th December - 19th December.

Patricia and I.

Part of the facilitators.

Getting ready to jump on stage.

I am not that fat right since I can jump! HAHHAHAHA.

8 group leaders with Patricia.

Joey and I.

During some presentation.

All the committees :D

This was the first day and the very first introduction.

It took me quite a while to get my group members to like each other and cooperate. They were so quiet in the beginning. Like super quiet. But end up still became very talkative and that's a good thing :)

Fyi, my group won the Tug O War because of me. HAHHAHA.

Proved that I climbed the freaking jungle... under the freaking rain. Pfft.

A little updates about YES Camp 2009 that I attended before I went China.

P/s : You guys can stop tagging me already with all the cmi pictures!

Missing camp ♥

For more pictures, my facebook tagged pictures.

LALALAA

2009-12-29T18:13:00.002+08:00

Stop sending my fucking invitations for New Year Eve as I hate every single fucking club especially Quattro on New Year Eve. God knows why.

I am heading to watch Miss Tourism Finals Live at Sunway.

And I am back from China!

Will update soon. Need to unpack, rest, head out.

P/s : I met Alvin three times in China wtf.

Missing

2009-12-21T02:48:00.005+08:00

YES Camp 2009.

Hesitated to attend after seeing how's the camp like on 13th December 2009.

Some of the pictures I took with my phone cause I forgot to bring my sexy camera along. I wasn't even prepared to go nor feel like going after seeing the camp.

It was totally like National Service camp and it is in a National Service camp. Located at Benum Hills, Kuanatan (inside joke). The times I used to get out of National Service... the times I cried because I was selected and I can still remember when I receive the letter from the goverment for my National Service, I cried like hell because I didn't want to go.

But four days is not that bad. At least I'm no longer a 100% princess.

Obstacle Challenge.

It's indeed all about team work.

All my team members fell in the fungus pond and it was so disgusting but they did not give up and tried more than twenty times. I didn't play because it was so dirty -.- and anyway it's not a must for group leaders to play.

Nelson & Shao Nian.

I got no idea what are they doing.

And this me writing encouragment notes for my team members. Most of them are lack of confidence and... they can't let go of their past which reminds me of mine. :(

The last day.

During our training on 13th December. Four days before the actual camp.

Balance Beam.

All of us.

I sort of started missing the wake up call by Lion Saw already. Although I have to wake up early in the morning and rush to bath etc. It was so bloody cold although there's no air cond in our room.

Jeanie's farewell on 14th December.

Met May May at the airport, too. Can't wait to see her again on New Year Eve.

P/s : I can't play Audition Sea anymore after 4 days of not playing it and now my finger is like so weak. Maybe I'm just too tired. Went out straight after arriving Kuala Lumpur. Went Star Cafe at first then off to Look Out Point and back to Star Cafe to meet up with Praveen, Eddie and the rest.

<3 grace

2009-12-20T18:51:00.002+08:00

Tuning into Epik High - One.

It's been four days since I listen to this song you know wtf very sad one.

I'm back from my so called National Service camp. The most wonderful experience I had was the jungle trekking.

I don't like climbing because I'm always afraid I might fall and die. I always needa someone or something beside me to hold me and make sure I am stable and I will never fall. I can't afford falling down since young.

The times I wanted to give up when I was climbing my way up to the highest point. It was raining heavily by the way. Imagine how I stand strong that time T______________T

I wanna thank the people behind me for shouting faster wtf if not I would just stand there and not move. And also the sergent there (who ask for my number twice wtf) who pull me up. I don't understand how they can climb up without rope. Now I know how important is rope so I must buy rope and keep in my room.

Hmm, and I also terpoke my hand on some duri thing T____T pain until my mom also cannot recognize me. But then I never give up larrr, I just keep on walking because I want to go back faster. Luckily I came back safely wtf.

I had to walk barefooted all the way back to the hall twice ! I'm like the most kelian people in earth.

The weirdest thing is that I didn't get fever although I stand under the rain for the past two days. God love me too much wtf.

Anyway I didn't try Flying Fox. Because... I scare of heights la wtf. Although I told everyone :

"Aiyahh very low only mah! Don't need scare one."

But then I own self never try wtf.

And I had 6 meals a day. Some more say wanna go on diet wtf.

Known as the princess there thanks to Lion Sashe.

Anyway lazy update already. Also no photos yet. All of it is with Patricia and Dr Ben. So byeeee, I'm going to bed and heading for karaoke tonight.

I am sorry.

2009-12-13T01:27:00.007+08:00

Oh well, I think I hadn't been updating for quite some time.

Relationship

I'll keep anyone from knowing about you; I'll leave the breath to tighten out; I'll force you to choose the end. Am I bad?

I'll take away all reason in this world for you to to stand.
And without the choice of the road back... I guess you'll walk to the end.
Your breath would probably end before my heart

I just want to end this year in peace... without you.

Looking up the sky, answered your call, hearing your voice.... I can hear that you're very happy and my feeling tells me that it would be better if I were there or if I did not lie to you that I was at home sleeping.

I had a dream and I take my dreams real. I don't want any heart broken nor shits. I just want to be like this for the rest of my year 09.

-

Suriamas brothers

I am losing my second home. I am losing my brothers. I can't blame anyone for this except for myself for not stopping this earlier and even brought chemicals into the life.

Thank you Izwan for the farewell present. I didn't want to speak to you this morning when you're leaving back to Johor because I cannot accept the fact that you are not coming back.

You guys are the one that brought joy back to my life... whether or not if it's questioning about my past relationship, I still answer happily and after that, I did not think about it anymore because you guys always keep me busy.

There had been lots of up and down when I was there. Creating lots of drama with Ariz that makes all of you headache because I always force you guys to choose between sister or brother. But every time you guys will say Ariz but I know laaa, you all sayang me more.

-

Internship

I am happy that my internship finally ends.

No more climbing to the balcony or run away from office at 4pm sharp in case got work to do and have to stay for OT.

-

Tropicana Mall

The times Azim took the wrong way to Damansara is really pissing.

Movie rating? 0/10.

The noobs.

2009-12-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

Johor trip wasn't good so far.

tongue piercing
my tattoo
they say my tattoo looks like an octopus and it's ugly
questions

-________-

Lucky thing my fourth aunt wasn't there but I'm prepared for my final lecture from her during Chinese New Year. Considering my stay there for Chinese New Year now.

Basically I hate being questioned especially when I have to explain it in Chinese words which sometimes it will mean the wrong way and I have to explain again.

I have 9 uncles and 11 aunties. Approximately 30 cousins. 1 grandma. That is how many times I have to repeat the same sentences and answer the same questions.

And this is just my dad's side.

Luckily my mom's side don't ask much because it's okay for them. My grandfather has an eagle tattoo anyway and I think it's cool.

Anyway I watched Orphan and Drag Me to Hell in my grandfather's home and it's so scary! I cannot believe people can think it's funny. FML.

downloaded Audition in my office.

I am so getting a bad report.

But the worse thing is that... I can't patch it. I think they probably banned games. And I'm already bored of miniclips.com. -___________-

Every single time I plug in the hard disc, the laptop hangs for approximately 180 seconds. This sucks and I got zero knowledge for this speed shit. Help :(

Oh yeah, I got a new tongue stud and it's pink!

Okayyyy, it's bed time now. I was suppose to just go accompany Sue buy her new stud but end up I bought a pink one and have to accompany her have her light dinner some more. I am so keliannnnn!

Sui jiao everyone!

P/s : Can anyone tell me where to download Taiwan drama series? Urgent.

P/s ii : I fat mer? Please say yes so that I have the motivation to go on diet.

Look what I found!

CMI PICTURES. I SWEAR WHOEVER IN FUTURE STEAL MY HARD DISC OR MY DAD'S LAPTOP WILL SPEND THEIR LIFE TIME LAUGHING 10 DAYS 10 NIGHTS.

WHAT THE FUCK IS MY PROBLEM WITH THE PEACE SIGN.

I can't believe I think that the guy in middle was hot before.

Enough for today. I scared myself, too.

SUI JIAO SERIOUS.

Fuck the world.

2009-12-07T08:24:00.002+08:00

7th December... not my day.

Ever since 5th December, my mood isn't going very well. I hate the dates between 5th - 12th. It was the days I suffered the most in my life.

I don't know what the fucking hell wrong is everyone calling me in the fucking morning when I did
not ask them to wake me up nor call me in the fucking morning telling me I got work.

I DON'T FUCKING NEED THIS SHIT.

I know my own timing. And I just want to be fucking alone so fuck off from me. I'm not in a fucking good mood.

Stop acting like I need something. I don't fucking need anything. It's been awhile since I am addict to alcohol back. Don't force me back to my same own path.

It's almost a year... a year is coming... and the nearer it gets, the pisser I get.

Fuck off, just fucking leave me alone when you don't understand how much pain I am being through.

And I fucking hate being questioned. I am not a fucking criminal. I been questioned like a fucking criminal by a fucking wanna be police before and I fucking hate it. Who the fuck he think he is to harass my life again and again.

AND STOP ADDING ME IN FACEBOOK WHEN I DON'T KNOW YOU AT ALL.

Fuck the world!

is about learning how to dance in the rain...

2009-12-05T10:55:00.002+08:00

Hi world, I just woke up and missed the morning ceremony for my cousin's wedding. Arrive here around 8pm last night and went straight to my cousin's house. Shit happened.

Now it's time to wake everyone up. They woke up at 4am and just came home to sleep awhile before lunch ceremony starts. Too bad since I am awake :D

Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass..

2009-12-04T10:58:00.007+08:00

I made up my mind to just stick with friendship. It's not going to work out if we get into a relationship anyway. We're only eighteen if you haven't realize that. I dare not give any single commitment anymore. Neither if I want.

Because I grew up.

And I got taller by the way.

not like when I am young and innocent. I know what's going on now and then. I know what I've been through but you guys out there only listen to one side story. Even if you did listen to both, you're still sticking to the fake ones like fork and spoon.

I am heading back to Johor at 4pm for cousin's wedding. :D

What have I done.. I thought we were just friends.

2009-12-03T14:10:00.000+08:00

I try to find someone whom I can talk with about it but basically you know all my friends. Although I know, some of them is truetable (Michelle) but I don't feel comfortable telling anyone who know you.

I don't know what you want already. I don't even know you as a friend anymore.

Do whatever makes you happy.

My ear hurts like hell and I still can hear all the echo around me. Fuck my life seriously for this shit to happen to me at the wrong time. Dah lah my whole December is fucking busy with full schedule. Basically not full lah but sounds full. Like I have to go YES Camp and torture teenages then to China to visit Great Wall of China (Max : hen chang the dong xi) and to visit a place call Cheng De which at first I thought it was Cheng Du.

My geography sucks to the max.

Why China?!

Because dad thinks that we are Chinese so we must at least visit our Ibu Negara (guo mu/mu guo).

Never mind about China. I told 10 people and 10 people laugh at me when I was answering them my plan for end of the year.

HAIHHHHH.

I was really expecting Japan.

Did I mention I am half deaf now so I practically can't hear everything properly. Except echoes. Many health problem coming recently. Down with all sorts of sickness and even end up with blood test. Then found out my right hand vein is too small already blahblahblah.

2012 for Grace Low wtf.

How was yesterday night Euphoria? Well, thanks Jacky for the shots and Deejays for the Bomb. I think I did a great job by conning the whole bunch of Edwin's group over. Nah, only 2 Malays were there. I am racist btw.

After that went over Edwin's house for barbecue session because I missed his birthday celebration on Sunday. Was too bloody tired and I anti social -______________-

Oh yeah, did I mention I had an argument with my dad's friend? Not actually my dad's friend... my dad's, er, club partner. He thinks that I am rude and wanna report to my dad. How funny. But who cares, he doesn't know I am the queen of the house yet. But basically it's not my fault how he keep on trying to get into the picture you see. Annoying. Nosy people, pfft.

You guys miss her already?!

Hahaha, she will be back really really really soon as she's having her stupid examination now!

Fat fat fat subway

2009-12-02T10:31:00.002+08:00

Today is officially a fucked up day (or FML day) for Michelle and I.

Everything went so wrong until we want to cry. Well, I hope tonight won't screw up because it's my first day working in Euphoria. So there's an important task for everyone who is alive! Go Euphoria today and get yourself a free entry or some other free stuff which I don't know. Anyway it's also ladies night tonight. According to Jacky, Thursday is too crowded that's why Wednesday is also a ladies night :D

Other than that, yesterday wasn't so bad when I stuck in the lift with my boss from Wah Tung Travel... R-o-g-e-r. Hmmmmmmm. I think he's cute when I was doing my training at Wah Tung Travel so I'm shy lah! He said hi to me by the way. *coughs

Michelle just text me and say her pencil case can't close but before that she plans to buy stationery because her pen no ink already and she's having her whatever calculations examination today. And for your information, her pencil case is as big as mine which is very big. Bigger than the normal calculator everyone is using so yeah. So can anyone tell me why she have to buy new stationery?

I got absolutely nothing to do other than facing this desktop... smoke... and drink water.

Can anyone give me something to do arr!

Okay time to eat!

Sian sian sian sian sian

2009-12-01T12:12:00.000+08:00

If things is not working out again, tell me, what should I do next. Giving another chance, again? If you can't wait for an answer, it's not my fault right. Stop putting the blame on me when I got my own freedom to do anything or see anyone I want. And no, you can never compare yourself to a bastard.

I'm so bloated now, had my breakfast like 10 minutes ago. Been having productive days like washing cars to raise fund for orphanage homes, drinking session with my little brother and his girlfriend and drinking session with Yan, Pene and the others.

Very productive.

Last night kena con to join a business thing. Very very very productive.

Met a few people who support Sunway over Taylor's. Mufy some more. Very very very very very productive. And they earning thousands a week. Pffft!

Doctor Lyou haven't call me till now for my blood test result. Maybe he found out I'm dying and doesn't want to let me know about it in case I cry in front of him, again.

Been feeding my fishes and Fishville every 6 hours. Emo for a moment because my sardine fishes died on Saturday -___________- all thanks to the Warcraft thus I got no laptop to use then can't feed my fishes.

What fishes?!

Fishville? Wtf if you haven't heard of Fishville then you a bit outdated lorr. Because Restaurant City and, err, Cafe World is so outdated already. Pfft. Fishville is the new pink.

Haih, so many things to do. Haven't even started my report for Mr Patrick yet. Some office report lah. So bloody troublesome right. Dah lah this training only got like 500 ringgit per month and I have to spend my time facebooking, sitting like I'm the boss with my legs on the table, tuning on the music as long as I could... etc.

According to the Sunway supporters, this is what they call lifeless.

Wtf. At least I don't have to bring my laptop to every single Starbucks and do the same presentation over and over again right. Hahhaahhaa.

Haih, very bored already.

Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you.

2009-11-27T01:53:00.007+08:00

Friday is here. What should I do? Should I go or should I stay?

Will things get better for me? Will I accept a new life? Is it time, yet?

Do you know that this song actually brings back a lot of bad memory. The flash back of me packing my luggage, hugging my so called son, Majolica, complaining to my Audition friend that my boyfriend is not answering my call...

and also nonstop dialling a number.

It also reminds me of the moment when the boyfriend finally answer the call and all I heard was.. Clubbing music.

He text me me after a while and apologise. Not sorry for going clubbing with friends. But he says he is sorry because he is at the pub drinking with his parents, and his parents’ friends.

Familiar excuse?

For the time I lie behind his back and went clubbing, these are the excuses I use. Or maybe sometimes I will say I am tired and need to sleep early. Like who will believe I sleep at 9pm? Him.

The worse one was during a friend's birthday last year when I went Barcelona and I can actually lie and say I am celebrating the friend's birthday. It was the night I touch down Kuala Lumpur from Taiwan.

Before I step in Tourism line, I thought long because he never wants me to step in Tourism line. But that's not because he hate travelling. But it's because he don't want me to be on air waitress.

The day before I enter the operation room on July 2009, I was told that there are 20% of chances I might lose my voice. The voice he always says is sweet which became annoying and irritating after some time being together. When doctor told me, the last thing I want to do is talk to him because I am afraid he can never listen to my annoying and irritating voice anymore.

For all the time we argue, for all the time we fight... threatens and blood actually became a sweet memory for me. Whenever I thought of it, it's so ridiculous and stupid. But it still brings back a smile in my face although deep down I know it's very hard for me to swollen this down.

He was the only one who trusts me and no, he doesn’t check my messages or make a big fuss about anything I did. Whatever excuses I use to cover up everything I’ve done behind his back, he will just accept it with a smile and then pinch my face.

After our official break up early this year, one day during class, he called. We talked about it. For a moment, there was this feeling coming in my heart. Something call.. guilt.

Why?

Because he told me that he actually knew about all the things I did behind his back but kept quiet all along. I thought of it again and again. If I am not mistaken.. the only reason why he didn't confront me was because he loves me a lot right then and don't want things to look nasty because we had enough arguments and fights.

It was right then, I know protecting his name is another thing I should do to cover back this guilt and also the reason why I forgive and trust.. his one and only reason of leaving which is cheating behind my back and making me hard to believe he would do such thing.

I don't owe him an apology nor a thank you.

Duckie? Chickie? *laughs

Anywayyy, time to rest.

Happy one day holiday, everyone.

And happy birthday to my ex boyfriend, Ming.

P/s : I am ready and my answer is yes.

Prove to me you're something.

2009-11-25T11:43:00.003+08:00

A word is a powerful thing. An insult doesn't have to be shouted at you to make you bleed; a vow doesn't have to be whispered to you to make you believe. Hold a thought in your head, and that's enough to change the actions of anyone and anything that crossed your path.

Tell me my dreams are unrealistic, I'll tell you yours aren't big enough.

And never will be anymore.

2009-11-25T02:56:00.003+08:00

Hellooooo!

I just came from Neway... sempana my celebration because my exam is finally over. :p

Had been studying the shit out, doing accounts for 6 hours straight, for the past two days. And I did not online for more than 10 minutes for the past few days! I am only allowed to feed my fish in Facebook. Am so proud of myself. Obviously need to thanks Rachael (my ex tutor for my previous test), Michelle and Daniel for staying up till like 2am (?) just to tutor me and make sure I won't fail.

Nah, I won't thanks Justin for trying to help or stalk me. Mhm.

Gonna meet Doctor Lyou tomorrow for my throat appointment tomorrow so I think I am heading to back now.

Just a little update on something.

P/s : I can't believe my sister just downloaded Maple Story and I am opening it now. For a moment, I don't remember my password and id.

It's true that I still love you.

2009-11-21T12:01:00.004+08:00

Yesterday I went Sungei Wang Plaza after work to spend my time there with Michelle and I have to say that place is awesome! Apart from all the imitation stuff lah, pfft. I wash my hair for only 25 ringgit only! Cheap or not you tell me! *flips hair

Until now my hair still smells nice. Lol.

The point is it’s considered my first time in Sungei Wang. What a Malaysian, right. Because of everyone lah! Telling me Sungei Wang is a lala land. Oh well, anyway, someone tried to burn Sungei Wang down yesterday afternoon. Hahhaa, it was so funny! I would have run there with my camera but it was so bloody cramp and smelly. And I don't want to be known as one of the kpo there :(

*the first time I went, before I could even take another step into Sungei Wang, I turn around and said let's go KLCC instead. That was before Pavilion was born, lol.

Head to El’ Harbenora (whatever spelling) at Capsquare.

It’s officially a paria Spanish club from now on. Diluted whiskey, suck songs… blah blah. We only went there cause of Justin Wong. Pfft, you seriously owe me big time. Have to admit also because of the free flow, teeheeee.

Bright side,

familiar?

The diary from Starbucks!

This thing cost me RM13.70 x 11, T.T

That's why I need a part time job after my internship at 4pm which I already found one... thanks to Jacky Foong for bringing me on board.

Reggae Bar.

It's super cheap there and everything is awesome. I mean I might not like some of the song but 70% of it is good. I get to know the owner there already and even con him that Michelle and I are real siblings. Hahhaa, Robert oh Robert... :p

Alright, I shall end here. Exam is on Monday and I need to start studying now! ♥

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true."

No one said caring would be easy.

2009-11-20T11:17:00.002+08:00

Tell me that it doesn't mean anything,
and I'll walkaway right now.
And when we pass each other in the malls,
we can pretend we don't even know each other,
just like what we did in Cotton On.

I was afraid of too many things, but dying to prove I was strong enough - to make my own way, to make it myself, to keep my head up, be the one who helps.

And I am content to walk a little slower, because there is nowhere that I really need to be.I find that life is easier when it is just a blur, with no details to confuse who or what or where I was. So when the ending comes the full regret will seem obscure, but these are days we dream about when the sunlight paints us gold. And this apartment could not be prettier as when we danced up there alone.

I walk around the school hallways last night and look at the people. I look at the teachers and wonder why they're here. If they like their jobs. Or us. And I wonder how smart they were when they were fifteen. Not in a mean way. In a curious way. It's like looking at all the students and wondering who's had their heart broken that day, and how they are able to cope with having three examinations and a lab report due on top of that. Or wondering who did the heart breaking. And wondering why.

Lets be happy with what we have, and enjoy the beauty in these days. Sometimes we'll laugh, sometimes we'll scream. As topic.

Just play that rock and roll for me,

2009-11-19T13:34:00.000+08:00

Azim's 18th birthday.

The cake I bought.

Written there B15-13A. Like duh. I wrote it myself btw :p

Birthday boy and I ♥

And he thought I've forgotten about it. Obviously, no :p

I will make it up for all the time I went missing from Suriamas. Heheee. Much loves!

-

I told you in just less than 24 hours. The longest period we argue was when I was him to fuck off which is so long ago and he was different in my heart right then.

One more song we can sing along to. Our big break, no more mistakes. One more time, we’ll do what we have to get this off the ground.

Tuning into: Te Amo – Rihanna

I lie on the grass, breathing in the silence, listening to the night, looking up at the stars. I look up at the night sky and I wonder about life, about you, about why I'm here. And I look up at those cold, beautiful stars, so far away, and I realize life has never seemed so big.

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It’s like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it’s not so important happy ever after, just that it’s happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away.

Stupid asshole

2009-11-18T21:34:00.004+08:00

--

I don't think it's just a movie.

It freaks me out and I was stoning all the way home from Kuala Lumpur after the movie and even knock the chair and almost fall a few times.

Thinking how am I suppose to react when it is really happening. -_____________-

Well, I guess the movie should be under 21sx because I am 18 and it still freaks me out.

I did not scream nor shout so yeah, someone lost the bet :p

--

Brother? Sister?

Fuck it. You just still can't accept the fact that I despise your little girlfriend, huh?

Too fucking bad!

And if you can't trust me it's also too fucking bad for you because I am obviously worth more than a fucking carton of milk.

Yeah, you're so daring right talk to me like that. That's because you're so far away from me, like across the sea? I don't see you shouting at me when I'm standing in front of you every single afternoon/night we were at Suriamas?! Fucking fool only know how to hide in a turtle shell (5th floor)

Just because you like Tourism doesn't means I like it, too!

Just because you made up your mind to study hard for your shit ass Culinary doesn't mean I have to be like you. So, whatever to you!

Anyway I have more choices in life than you so fuck you!

My love turned around,

2009-11-16T10:45:00.002+08:00

Each morning when I open my eyes, I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead; tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy with it.

I'm at the point in my life where things are neither good or bad. They could be better, but they could be worse and I can't look at anything with a purely pessimistic or optimistic point of view. It's that point in life where you just have to forge forward and hope for the best. You keep your fingers crossed in hopes that someday catching that happiness you tried so hard to hold in your grasp. That's the thing about happiness, it is fleeting. Like that firefly you try to capture and no matter how many times you waver, try to clasp it in your hands, but it never wants to be kept. Keep one foot in front of the other and move along, because someday that firefly will find it's way back to you.

It's like seeing someone for the first time, and you look at each other for a few seconds, and there's this kind of recognition like you both know something. Next moment the person's gone, and it's too late to do anything about it.

If you're looking for the truth, you have to shut up. Most people I know fill their days with meaningless bullshit, small talk, and trivial diversions just to keep the noise in their own heads down.

Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently.

They're not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status quot. You can quote them; disagree with them; glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world are the ones who do.

The rest of the pictures in Barsavanh.

Anywayyyyyy,

we had fun.

Tuning into : Bad Boy - Cascada.

Wo bu zhi dao zhen me yang,

2009-11-15T23:53:00.001+08:00

Who, we, what?

I am obviously cuter than him no matter what, duh.

This is obviously my birthday boy for the night and he is my love!

Hello? I ditch Zouk for him so how can he not be my love!

Leon Dinesh 21st birthday!

Tinky-Winky!

Yeah he was a little, just a little bit, high.

How long we hadn't been hanging out! ♥

Yeah, Jean-ni was there, too.

And she told me a lot of things I am involved but I don't know? Thanks love ♥

Yeah I guess everyone already know who is he :p

How can you all not see her, right!

My baby ♥

Guess who is coming KL this coming Friday just to see his lovely little baby? Cousin Ken! And where are we heading? Rootz, again! :d

and she says te amo,

2009-11-15T12:20:00.001+08:00

I have to admit at times I did let her down with my immature thinking, attitude and behavior. But I'm trying my best not to make her worry like the other day (16th October) I was so drunk I cried on phone and off we go to Bukit Jalil to find her with Shinji and the rest. I have to admit I was very upset that day. Sometimes she weren't there for my physically but I always know, she is there for me mentally. :D

And the wonderful person who I'm mentioning is Tan Hoeyen.

People always thought my mind was corrupted by another friend but it's not like that. She did not corrupt me or whatsoever. I did all that willingly and things changed. I'm getting older (only eighteen wtf) and I can really think maturely now. For all the thing people said behind my back, as long as my friends trust me, I am already satisfied.

But for those who doesn't know who am I and just believe whatever others said, I am so sorry. I will try my best to explain things right but it's still up to you.

Most recent rumors,
Grace Low backstab Guy B.

How did the rumors start? Guy A wants Girl A back to his side and started using my name to backstab about Guy B so that Girl A won't accept Guy B.

Who is Guy A? Basically everyone knows him. He is quite popular but yeah.. what a behavior. And the best part is... I only know him for five days (less than that probably) and he can start using my name proudly.

The second best part? My abang don't want me to confront him.

Now I'm starting to wonder if he really want to befriend me when he first met me at Euphoria or he just want to use my name after browsing through Guy B's facebook pictures.

-----

Barsavanh, Asian Heritage Row.

Leon's 18th birthday.

The Teletubbies went down to attend except Dipsy. I represent the Hoeyen group for Leon's birthday. Kit Meng, Kit Shaun, Yen, and Yong Sern is studying for examination. So is Nicholas, Park Leng and thre rest.

More photos with Teletubby Michelle. She promised to upload the next day but it's already next next day. Well, we are all very very very tired. ♥

Teletubby Little Brother drop by too in the middle of the night. With his hair in a very very messy position. Hahhaha.

Fuck you

2009-11-14T22:47:00.002+08:00

Jeanie's farewell and I did not attend.

No matter what, I will fly to Germany to visit you okay! Don't cry in the airport man you guys wtf

Anyway,

dad met an accident at Seremban today. Thanks to those speeders.

You know what, you think you hou lan yeng drive so fast and cut left and right. I think it's damn sohai.

So this is for all of you who drive like that...

_|_

dad's car spin around the highway and luckily, no car came and bang it if not, I will fucking curse all the car who speed and probably my next ambition is to be a police who catch all this mother fuckers.

Thank God dad came home safely. Driver send him home around 8pm. The accident happened at 2pm. Why such long period? Ask the Malaysia police. They do things super fast one :)

I hope the lady is alright. Dad says she broke her arm and legs and some stupid paria Malay stole her laptop.

Dad took some photos of his poor Camry and it has to stay in the workshop for almost 1 - 2 months.

:|

And they gonna fall in love tonight;

2009-11-13T10:56:00.003+08:00

On Thursday, I met an Australian who needs help so Joe and I being the best human being alive helped her :p

Then we forgot to buy chewing gum again because we were so into helping around. Hehhee.
Chewing gum is so nice you know. I personally recommend the… err… one with lime and strawberry. Super niceeeee! I like many many!

Before that we went Starbucks. Are you bored with Starbucks and me already? Well, don’t be! Because I’m still in love with Chocolate Cream Chip without whip cream!

TEEHEE.

Well, I didn't ask nor force them to do so. They did it willingly :p

Anywayyyyyy,

I'm in office now and I'm so bored already. Yesterday a disaster happened. I threw my tantrums at someone and I really felt bad. I apologized after 10 minutes. That's so not me, eh?

wtf you?

Yesterday.

My hair is getting longer. That's a good thing *thumbs up

Where am I heading tonight? BarSavanh? Zouk? Changkat?

Impossible I can enter Zouk without Mich's help so forget it :( Maybe I will just head to BarSavanh for Leon's birthday. Michelle baby, when you see this, wanna goooooo?

Love is something beautiful and sweet. Just like Teletubbies. ♥

Don't complain when love flew away, because it might be your fault why the break up even exist.

wo ai ni xiang babi

2009-11-12T08:50:00.001+08:00

Edited:

http://oh-so-glamorous.blogspot.com/2009/11/older.html

For the first time Hoeyen is not talking crap :p

Well, I personally agreed with her from top to bottom. It's a feeling I long want to say it out. No matter how much did a loved one hurts me, I will not talk back about it.

So, as far as I know myself, you were still once a very good friend of mine who were always there for me no matter what. That's why I didn't want to see shits happen nor fight back.

Maybe some people out there will start adding oil into the fire, but it's alright for me because I know deep down you trusted me more than them.

Just to ensure you one last thing... You will always be remembered.

------

I have meats because my parents fed me with love. Wait... not only my parents, my friends, too. Look how much they feed me during our buffet dinner tonight. Well, actually I requested for more sushi from my Japanese brother, Shinji. ♥

I actually wanted to finish up this post last night but I was too tired I went to bed, leaving it like that. But sometimes peace is very hard to find. There's still calls coming in after 1am, and smses to reply. Like some people who don't allow me to sleep unless I sms with him a few sms.

-__________________-

Sms already never mind but reply so late some more and expect me to wait. End up I fall asleep there. Boooo, wtf.

Continuing the post,

To me it's already a lot. Hehehe.

Were waiting for Michelle to come back from washroom and we found some really cool thing!

Okay lah more like this dude found it.

A very cool mirror.. worrrrrr.

Michelle joined.

So Shinji no choice have to join, too.

Very cool mirror right. Hahaha, I wanted to steal it home but I don't know how T____T

Overall the bill was 160 ringgit ++. Well, don't remember much. But shits happen at the beginning. The waiter spill the whole Lemon Coke on Shinji and he was so piss off after we switch room, he started throwing tissue everywhere.

Sigh, uncivilized people. :p

Anyway tonight is like my sleeping night. I will not entertain anyone!

ROARRRR.

Oh yeah, visit can ar?

CLICK HERE.

Fucking P

2009-11-10T23:21:00.003+08:00

sOf course you need attention; you don’t even have enough friends. Oh well, happy bullshitting. It’s like my little brother says, ‘if she can do this to me, I can’t afford to have this kind of friend’. I am willing to let go a friend who only knows how to bark behind gadgets. It’s not a weird thing you don’t have friends in class. Of course you claim me as psycho/crazy. I can't blame a person who need psychiatrist help for saying that. Oh yeah, click here. Everyone has personality disorder. Again, can't blame you for not knowing, you're born to be left out. I promised your boyfriend not to do anything, so this would be a little farewell present for you.

Anyway,
I had my Starbucks session with Michelle Lim today. After that we headed to KFC drive thru to get our KFC in 5 minutes! We’re heroines :p

Medium choc cream chip without whip, my favorite!

While waiting for Coco Cola uncle to buy his coke.

Jeanie was with us, too. She's the feather pen.

♥

Michelle's surprise party at Rootz, Kuala Lumpur.

I planned it for her with Alvin's help and Alvin don't even know her yet. Such a nice person. He's still single :p

Because I can't get Michelle's friend to attend, I don't have their number; so I ask my friends to celebrate for her instead :)

My little birthday girl
(yeah lah yeah lah don't say 'eh I elder than you' when you see this)

Her favourite cake!

She told me once only and I had a hard time searching for it because I don't remember already. Thanks to Alvin for traveling up and down with the photo? :D

She gave me the love :p

And kind enough to share with me her strawberry. Even fed me :p

Alvin Lee.

Thanks!

Bored of her already? Don't be!

Grace: Joe, do the hand thing.
Joe: What for? I don't want.
Grace *stare cock

Joe: Haihhhh.

Teletubbies!

My charity club members ♥

Treasurer and I.

Michelle's 23rd Birthday at Duta Vista, Jalan Duta, Kuala Lumpur.

It was a fun night although I K.O. at 1:30am sharp and lost my right side flip flop. Brandon A. was good enough to leave his right side of his flip flop for me. We're switching it back this weekend.

We had to check in by 2pm.

But poor guy he was alone so we had to wait for him.

Michelle was waiting patiently.

So were I.

Still waiting.

So we finally got in to room 454 and this is how it is like. Two floors by the way but I'm so lazy to go upstairs and take picture of it. I'm.. scare. Hahahaha.

Kisses, hehee.

Her birthday present for me.

That night...

That's Carol. She's funny. :D

That Jeanie. She's heading back to Germany already. Kind of sad tho T.T

This were the people who "stole" my flip flop.

Darynne and Hugo, her puppy.

Didn't get to take picture with the rest because.. as usual, I died.

Dinner with them, again, the next day.

I brought my sister along. Just one of them. And she told Jeanie everything about her life but she didn't tell me. As usual lah only tell other people.

All this was last week.

Anyway, drop by Michelle's blog? Because it's funny! She almost call Amber Chia... Teletubby Amber Chia wtf? And I edited the blog skin for her so must go read :p

FUCK RELIANCE

2009-11-10T12:43:00.000+08:00

What the fuck man.

Dad just texted when I was having my dead to the world moment and said that Beijing trip is confirmed and he paid the deposit. I straight wake up and text back “I don't want to go la!”

It's just going to be like the Taiwan trip last year.

B-O-R-I-N-G

First of all, it is because my mandarin verse is fucking lousy. Even if it's good, I can't speak their slang or even understand. They're strange. And it’s bloody china there. I will just end up not buying anything back – just like Taiwan trip.

And it’s 7 days. We are going to travel every day, bringing our luggage everywhere – just like Taiwan trip. Well, that’s because most of the travel agency is dumb enough to set this kind of… itinerary.

And bloody 1.9k per person is fucking expensive. Ask me, I’m in travel line. I told dad it’s expensive already, and he still want to book it. (and they’re giving Economy class dude)

Good, I check the fucking Economy class for Beijing and it’s full. Now I have to squeeze with everyone, again. Very good. And the fucking air ticket is only 400+ ringgit. I told you! And fucking travel agency book it earlier so their ticket is like 200 – 300+ only. Some more it’s travel agency, they can buy it in cheaper price.

CIBAI.

Anything Else? 23rd December – 29th December is like winter? And China would be fucking cold. I hate cold. I never like cold although I like snow. So fuck winter. That's why Travel Agency take so fucking long to sell of the seats.

And then, I am going YES Camp on 17th December till 20th December… I won’t even have the fucking time to rest before I go Beijing again. Furthermore what we do in YES Camp is more to sports activities. Just kill me lah I’m definitely going to suffer more before I go Term4.

Right now already don’t have time to relax and when it’s my only 2 weeks of holiday, I have to fucking travel like a bitch.

Anyway also fucking thanks to Reliance keep calling my dad every fucking day to ask him to go Beijing. Fuck you, Reliance. You fucking sucks.

Yeah, I'm in Travel line to I have to learn how to travel around. I know, but who the fucking hell pay more than 1k for traveling? Reliance must be fucking happy now earning fucking a lot.

But just giving me an economy seats and 4 stars hotel?

FUCK LA.

I fucking piss off man I tell you. I am going to make the fucking tour guide in a disaster and give fucking good feedback. You just see.

Now I'm so tempted to call Reliance and fucking diu them for whoever who is in charged and told dad it's a good trip.

Either she's dumb or she just want to sell off the package and earn.

Fucking bitch.

When you buy a fucking package, and they tell you "oh the price increase because of xmas cny blahblah". That's bullshit you know.

Because the fucking air ticket they bought earlier is still fucking bloody cheap lah.

All travel agency is bullshit agency lah. Bullshit.

32nd anniversary

2009-11-09T10:27:00.008+08:00

My little treasurer. And his queen secretary.

I don't have time to grab all the photos and upload it here as I'm very busy. More to lazy. I'm like so sleepy now I think I am falling asleep soon but Mr Patrick is here. Maybe I will upload the rest of the photos in this post soon.

Anyway this was Friday night at Federal Hotel by the way. It was a dinner that almost kill my feet.

I think my laptop is going to explode very very soon as I don't switch it off at all before I sleep. Sigh, I want a new laptop before it explode and kill everyone around me.

It's only like Rm2299. Really cheap you know.

This is like RM5588. It's nice, too, but yeahh... a little too pricey.

December I will be like really busy. On the 5th of December, I have to head back to Johor for my cousin's wedding and on that night itself, my cousin who don't speak to me since primary three wants to bring me to club. Well...

on the 17th December, am heading to Kuantan (is Pahang in Kuantan?) for YES Camp which surprisingly I am selected to be the team leader. Hahaha, see! People admire my attitude and behavior. Tsktskkk.

When I am back on the 20th, I most probably is planning a trip to Langkawi. If no one wants to go, I will go myself. I had been waiting to go Langkawi since like forever. I shall make it on the 23rd till 27th December then.

Well maybe the Langkawi trip won't be on, too, because dad wants to bring us to Beijing end of this year. It would be a 7days trip. Extra busy.

Then New Year is here and another year of college to end my diploma.

P/s : I am getting a little annoyed with the socialinterview.com thing in facebook.

Maybe it's true that I can't live without you

2009-11-08T23:33:00.003+08:00

I'm really lazy right now and I haven't get the photos from anyone yet so yeah.

Thursday.

After that I headed to, mhm, I don't quite remember? Oh yeah, I went Asia Cafe at night and head home by 12am, I guess? Nah, don't really remember. Played pool and foos with Faidi's younger brother and got bullied. I just sucks in foos. I don't even play it so doesn't bother me much.

Monday again. I'm so tired and sleepy.

Happy 23rd Babe

2009-11-07T05:28:00.003+08:00

back home at last !

Threw a surprise party for little Michelle at Rootz, KL, and she was about to cry. Hahahhaaa.

Hope everyone had a splendid night. I did actually until something pisses me off and shits happen. Oh well, good nights world. I will update when I get the pictures.

Much thanks to Alvin Lee ★

Edited:
I remember when I was... a little drunk (because I drank wine in Federal before that ok!) and everyone was taking good care of my new phone due to my previous case.

Thanks a lot. I am seriously touched because my other friends will pass around instead. T.T especially Michelle. She actually hold my phone all the way in case it got lost.

P/s : I think it's time to request a big big favor from Michelle and Ryan. You like that particular club? I make sure you get your ass to other club. Alright?

I am fucking sober now, just a little hangover so yeah, I know what exactly is going on now and what is happening.

And after I read everything my friend sent this morning. From someone no one can expected, too. I kind of got piss.

If you can trust that particular someone for saying that, then fucking go on. And you say you can trust me. Yeah right. Even when people try to break us up for more than 10 times and we say : "hah, fuck you, you can't break us up"; you still fall for in at last and who knows? Involve yourself inside already? Everyone says I will fall for it first because I'm less mature, but yeah, we saw now.

Well, up to you.

Michael Jackson

2009-11-06T10:37:00.000+08:00

I actually miss the time I spend with my brothers almost every day. For a moment I felt left out from their life and Nyung Jiang was telling me how much everyone had changed including Edwin and I feel so, too.

For all the chewing gums I threw out from the car window… Amen.

After the movie... I watched last night – Michael Jackson This Is It and it was awesome. The whole movie is about how the concerts would be, but I still didn't feel like I was seeing a concert. I was seeing a little family making a big project come true.

I didn’t know Michael Jackson at all before this and misinterpret him totally. When everyone was R.I.P-ing him, I was saying the worse thing ever. “Why is everyone still talking about MJ, hello? He’s dead already wtf “

I didn’t know he was so sweet and of course I didn’t know he died a day before his concert until Mich told me. Man, I regret not loving him! Is it too late? I think not. Wtf self answered.

Tuning into:

Earth Song – Michael Jackson.

Hey, I love trees, too!

"We used to say they will do it, they will solve it, but who is they? They is us." - Michael Jackson.

I'm only a fan after he died.

You said you love me right?

2009-11-04T00:24:00.003+08:00

I am meeting Amber Chia this Thursday because dad can’t attend the peace poster contest and needs the young ones to replace him. So I am going and I am bringing Michelle. I ask Hoeyen to tag along but she doesn’t want to. Well she has exam anyway.

On second thought, my examination is approaching. It’s like end of this month thus, less than a month away. How come I have to suffer?

I think the Commuter Train thing really needs guards who can speak English. Today when I was on the way home, queuing up for the train when I see more and more people waiting and end up, I just stomp away and sat at the seats and see them rushing in and out of the train.

So then I ask the guard if there’s another train coming and he told me in 30 minutes. I remember learning about Limited Stops Shuttle and I ask him about it and he tell me don’t know. Or maybe he doesn’t understand wtf am I saying.

I am really piss off you know. I just sat back there and stone when 2 Pakistan dude came walking towards me. One sat beside me and another one in front of me.

-_____________-

I was so bloody afraid I stop smsing and hide my phone in my bag. They can take my laptop but not my phone. Hahaha.

They followed me to the Limited Stops Shuttle and were staring at me whole time. But never mind because I saw a handsome dude in the train wtf and he is so cute. Hahhahaha. Okay whatever =.= then came a group of girls (around the age of 16) who makes lots of noises and I keep giving them the stare but one of the girl shouted nonstop. She think she very cool is it -.-

And she is fat. Well, I am, too. But she is fatter.

-_________________-

I had my lunch with Michelle today anyway. We had chicken rice for lunch; with Joe and Allen, too. Okay I really have to stop eating chicken rice. It’s my lunch since last week you know. No wonder I fall sick so easily. It’s already almost 1am now and I have work at 9am.

I feel sick. And I can’t wait for Friday night somehow. Maybe it’s because of the liquor. I am obsessed with liquor, again. I have to stop it, man.

By the way I am playing UNO. And great, I just lost to Michelle. Wtf.

I think no one bothers reading this whole thing so I won't waste my time continue typing and I'm still playing UNO.

I hope you're not bored of her, yet.

shut up.

2009-11-03T11:02:00.004+08:00

Somehow, I don't remember buying this top. o.o''

The wifi connection is a little unbalance now although the main power (Allen) is not here anymore. Maybe it’s because of my boss who is using Mac Book Pro. He just has to come back from Singapore when I’m here and snatch my speed away.

On another point, I really have to stop coughing everywhere I go; or feeling sick.

This Friday I am heading to Lion’s Club 32nd Anniversary dinner. After that Alvin will pick me up and we’re heading to the new club, Rootz. Too bad Hoeyen is having exam because I am allowed to bring whoever I want. It’s just another night outing.

Now the speed is really killing my nerve.

There’s a new colleague since yesterday but I was absent yesterday because of my fever and she’s flirting with my manager, Thomas. And Kenny looks extra gay today for some reason which I haven’t spotted.

Did I mention about my eyes, yet?!

It’s swollen again! Fuck my life seriously.

NOW I FUCKING KNOW WHY THE SPEED IS SLOW.

Allen is downstairs, 11th floor, and he is using the fucking wifi upstairs here. Because downstairs don't have wireless!

-____________________________-

Sneak peak for my Halloween night.

P/s : No, I did not dress up as a bunny although I wanted to. It was my Adeline's bunny ear.

Heh.

Could it be you?

2009-11-02T12:09:00.003+08:00

Little Hoeyen is having her finals starting from today, four hours ago.

Hehhh, I wish her all the best although if she pass she have to go Australia to study and then I can never see her anymore and we won't have our dim sum session anymore T.T

Or Jay Chou bah kut teh T.T

But never mind ! I'm in travel line what. I can fly to see her in Australia and maybe tapao dim sum or bah kut teh over. Right right?

♥

Pass the test and stop fighting with Yong Sern.

P/s : When you're gone, fluffy is mine. :D

-

It's been awhile since I spoke to my host family in Japan. Or see Kiska growing up pictures.

I need a miracle.

2009-11-01T19:25:00.010+08:00

Left my laptop to Joe on Thursday.

Came home without laptop to use and have to use my little baby to online. I name it bubu. ★

Err, I not using 5800 and I was a little piss at this facebook for a moment but couldn't care less because I was sleepy harhar. -__________-

So Mich ask me to download this really cool thing so that I could online anytime I want. Faster and easier, too :p

Once I downloaded it, I test it on Brother Ariz.

But he end up lecturing me as a brother.

Really cool :p

Can make plans with Rachy with it, too.

Cool. *thumbs up

And gossip about Indians. Especially kutus.

Cool. *thumbs up

After work, wheee.

This was at Suria for Friday Euphoria. Was getting ready there and a little catch up with my brothers. Wuuuu. I bought for them KFC, too. Knowing they are hungry :p

Azim !

Last night went for Euphoria Halloween instead. It was awesome. Apart from Simon's friend issue. -______- then I had hangover this morning wtf

Earlier just now, went Starbucks for usual coffee session with Mich. And then we head over to Taipan for early dinner and went Puchong to collect back my laptop and also loklok ♥

Excuse me.

Heh.

Anyway I hope no one misunderstood her. We only know each other for 2 weeks and had been seeing each other almost everyday. It's cool but rumors of I ditching my own friends are spreading like nobody's business and I don't like it. But it's okay for me alright; just stop mentioning Mich's name.

See my facebook for more pictures on Halloweeeeeen.

P/s : No, I did not dress up as a teletubby.

Just get back up.

2009-10-31T18:45:00.003+08:00

Lately, I had been really piss off with even one small tiny thing that is happening in my life. I didn't know what was wrong until 3 days back, I realize the jealousy that has been occurring in my little black heart.

What kind of jealousy?

Phone.

To be honest, although I can get back the same phone, I can't cope with it anymore. Because every single time I need to call a person, I can't find the damn number and no one cooperate to give it to me (actually everyone did lah but I always want what I want)

Then, I will think like so what I have this new prettier phone? I still don't have all my contacts anymore.

I know the person who took the phone is someone whom I know and I just want to say, please, return my sim card to me. It won't make any changes to our friendship, I promise.

Next was because of the friendship that had been going on for three days including on my birthday itself. I just have to say that I am sorry your girlfriend and you broke up but it's none of my business so stop pushing the blame to... Nicholas Lai.

Nicholas Lai, I am sorry about almost dragging you into the picture.

So, mostly it's still regardless the phone. It's almost 2 weeks now but I haven't get over it yet. And I still can't believe I treated the phone like shit when I was owning it. Now whoever who is using it must be damn happy. Sigh.

And I know that I don't spend much time outside after 12am anymore and my close friends aren't that happy because I'm not updating my life much and my princess attitude is like showing more often.

Sigh, I am working people, in Kuala Lumpur. Somewhere far from Subang. I am tired. I come home feeling exhausted every each day. I can't hang out in the middle of the night, playing truth or dare nor foos or just sitting there wasting my damn time. I don't even have enough time of my own.

Halloween is tonight people.
Where are you heading because I am heading to Euphoria / Zouk / Maison.

Gotta get ready now. Having loklok dinner with Michelle while my parents is out for dinner already, brother is working and sisters has their own party to attend *cock stare

This is what happen when I was looking for a pair of ear.

Grace : Hey, do you have like bunny ear?
Worker : Oh, it will be here tomorrow.
Grace : Cat ear?
Worker : Also tomorrow.
Grace : Okay what ear you have? -_______-
Worker : No ear.

-_____________-''

Yes, I want to cut off everything with you.

2009-10-29T10:41:00.003+08:00

Today is supposedly a happy day because I had my full day date with Michelle Lim & I bought a new touch screen phone without 3G! (Ha-ha, dad can't 3G me anymore) Although it's not pink but I bought a pink strap for 3 ringgit!

But when I got home, I sat in front of my laptop... feeling a little depress.

Something inside me is not feeling right anymore. Day after day I felt weaker and I am losing motivations to move on my life. I see myself leaving this picture further and further.

Is it just another simple crush?

-

Everything goes fine today except for the guy who bought NEW iphone from me with a bargain price – RM780. I got it as my birthday present actually and sold it.

With 2 people offering 1k and 950 ringgit but I rejected and sold it for RM780.

Yet the guy is unhappy with the price because it’s doesn’t comes with the full set; USB Cable, charger etc. I mean, if you can get a bloody iphone for RM780, will you still talk so much and make a big fuss? (he shouted at me at ss15 McDonald's)

So I went and buy a charger for him – RM48, and gave it to him earlier. He argues over a fake charger and refuses to pay the 80ringgit he owes. Which makes me kind of piss off but I were holding the temper and called Michelle then pass the phone to the dude. Michelle was speaking to him nicely but he was damn rude to her so she shouted back. Shinji at the back wanted to just take the phone and ask the guy what’s his problem.

Yes I am girl but that doesn’t mean you can keep on bullying me like that, right?

When I return to the table in Asia Cafe (from McDonald's), Shinji took the private line phone and called the dude then talk to him nicely. He wanted to shout at the dude but since he’s my ex’s friend, Shinji let him go -.-

At first I really want to post his picture and show how pathetically he is but it’s kind of rude so yeah. He thinks I work in night market and is selling iphone there is it?

Before that during our first deal, he already kind of bullying me already. I was alone there dealing with him that time. And his attitude kind of piss me off but you know.. I'm such a nice person and did not complain :( so I told Shinji never mind.
Then now again!

Before I left McDonald's I some more apologize to him and say will treat him next time and he say no thanks wtf.

-

Koh Leong's birthday !

I went Starbucks for my early coffee with Michelle.

Then,

happy me,

with happy Michelle

At Station One. 2nd picture :p

She was doing her assignment with Daniel's help while I... play with my new phone.

At Euphoria for our...

Calm down vodka wtf

Okay actually I damn lazy already.

Overall she did cheer me up a lot. So, thanks Michelle ! ♥♥♥♥♥

Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you.

2009-10-28T07:29:00.004+08:00

I had the weirdest dream of myself staying with two people I don't know and apparently someone died on the day I move in to the apartment.

Later on, I keep meeting the "dead people" everywhere and err, I even witness the dead people taking picture with the rest of my friends in dream. Like smiling beside them and those. Fuck, maybe I watch NigaHiga's videos too much.

Kind of creepy I find myself sweating when I'm awake. Imagine if that really happen in real life.

*reminds me of the girl in The Curve.

I went The Curve last night and when I was going the right way, some girl just pop out and her eyes was huge. I almost scream. I swear my heart was beating damn fast D:

I am celebrating Halloween twice this week. Friday & Saturday. What should I wear? :p

I wanted to be Teletubbies (scary one) but everyone kind of say no.

Anyway remember my lost phone incident? Dad just pass me cash and now he's off to Johor. I can get any phone I want, again. Why must this lost phone incident always happen to me. Now what phone should I buy?

Since I called Nokia yesterday and they say they seriously can't import the pink phone in yet.

What do you mean yet? -___________________-''

So ah, what phone should I get? Except iphone. Duuu, I won't want to cut my nails off over that phone.

Yesterday, I have to take care of my colleague's son because everyone tried to make him sit but he just can't sit still !

I guess I have got this power to make kids sit down and shut up :]

I want to love you, like how I love him, but I can't do it.

2009-10-26T11:57:00.004+08:00

Facebook is bloody problematic. I had a hard time uploading photos, what more tagging everyone. The connection here is like in premenstrual mode.

By the way, I took the train to work today! All by myself. *proud and tear

Although it's tough because I have to ask like damn a lot of people how am I suppose to go etc and I almost took the wrong train to Port Klang. And a few weird people thought I am a Japanese and ask if I need help. I learned today (:

Zul, why such sleepy face ! :p

My little crown for the day.

Yesterday I had my yum cha session with Su Wai. Actually she were suppose to go tapao food for her sister and I tag along because she miss me (we're getting marry wtf) so yeah. We ended up at Station One and guess who came?!

Rachael, Nick and a girl :D

Had kutu session and it was fun lol. Until some emo songs was played.

Fyi, Liverpool pawn ManU okay. Shut up all MU fans.

What happen to my pink phone, Kiki?

It's coming but not confirmed as I have to make special order to get it. Thanks to Nokia Center (: they will tell me the result by Wednesday, can't wait :p

Is waiting for Michelle for lunch now.

P/s : can't wait for this coming Friday

Sweet little 18th

2009-10-25T12:27:00.004+08:00

Shall wait for my next album in Facebook because it's impossible for me to upload all my pictures here, right? Heh. Thanks for all who attended, spent time, waste their "study hours", was there, and those who wished me.

Even if it's late for approximately 1 hour and 45 minutes. *stare cock at Suwai, Ian, Roger.

Friend's house.

Zw's birthday bash.

Poppy.

Getting ready to Sunway, Suriamas

MOS, Akon after party.

Well, since I am officially 18 already... doesn't mean I am legal for all yet because I still can't enter casino for Roulette! Blehhh.

I just want to say, how much I still love Teletubbies and Barney. It's not the problem of age, dudes. Because ever since I started expressing my love towards these two... creatures; everyone had been telling me the same old' thing.

Well, then do you know the reason why am I so sharing?

This is because; Teletubbies and Barney taught me how to share cookies with friends.
And for those who went Speedzone at Genting, fuck you.

Somebody kantoi me going Euphoria without him. Ah, hours I wasted just to see Akon but still fail ! I even crash in his private room (Michelle and Kim is the one actually!) and ended up not seeing him, too ! Because he left to his hotel already.

P/s : waiting for me at hotel room

Yaaaddaaaa.

Sorry somebody, I will always sayang you. Furthermore, you didn't bring me to Maison either although you left early, hahaha. Hate you.

I will update about my birthday very very very very very soon. Most probably Monday because I am working and my job is to online watching...

NigaHiga's video. (youtube google him man he is like damn bloody hot!)

And happy 21st birthday Patrick Ong, I am always 1 day older than you although you're three god damn years older than me wtf

I don't know what roti canai message you sent me at 12am -___________-

1240pm, finally dad went out and it's time for me to sleep.

18th birthday !

2009-10-24T12:12:00.003+08:00

I had a great night, thanks everyone !

Will update soon. I need to meet up few groups for the day. Especially those who meant so much to me. Too bad Ariz and Hafiz is not here. :( I miss them a lot !

But they did wish me at 12am sharp. :p

P/s : I am not drunk ! Although I don't remember why is tehre so many bruises on my leg. I don't even know I took a picture with Shinji at 12am sharp. He claim it a surprise because he didn't want to come Poppy earlier. -_____________- and he even text me say he can't attend and only can see me tomorrow.

P/s : My 4 sisters wasn't with my on my big day ! Ezra, Raine, Hoeyen and Tiffany ! Walaoooo very dulan four of you lorr. Have to understand I did not text Ezra, Hoeyen and Tiffany can't come out at night. But Raine ! Haihhh. :(

Overall, it was a good night.

Thanks for the absolute, guys !

♥

I will update and upload all the pictures very very very very soon ! Over 200 pictures in just few hours.

Ariz Redza

2009-10-23T11:21:00.000+08:00

My hobby is to bully Ariz Redza when I am too bored because he is the only person who will entertain me although it's only one small thing.

And when I am busy already, I will end it with a stronger sentence that make him very very piss off and then I will go offline or end the call.

After few days (the most is 4 hours), he will text me saying he is sorry when it's not his fault !

So bloody funny right :p

Look how a tiny little thing can make him so angry !

Sometimes stranger like the Fererro Rocher son, Dixon Tan, will get involve :p

The next day, I still aiming Ariz Redza. But since his little friend, Dixon Tan, wants to get involve, he is finally involved ! :D

Still disturbing him but new topic. Apparently he did not care but texted me and say he very dulan at me which make me laugh like hell !

Just had a little conversation with Ariz and he is so funny he made me laugh like hell !
:D

But no matter how angry he is, he still damn syg me that's why he is always my big brother ! Full of protection and love ★

Despite everything we have been through, we end it by being brother and sister and I'm glad he syg me so much. Of course I syg him, too cause he is so easy to kena bully ! I can't wait for internship to finish and continue bullying him in college, class, Suriamas, everywhere :p

I remember there's a few times when I am crying on phone and he was always there for me. Then another few times I act like I am sad when actually I am just disturbing him and he rush back home just to webcam with me and make me laugh.

Ah, what a good brother :p

For those who don't know him,

This is Ariz Redza and yes he is a pure Malay and I hate Malay. hahahahaha by saying that I can get to piss him off again :p

A fan of useless Chelsea wtf.

I guess he is too obsess with Chelsea *stare cock

I am thinking what to piss him off again.

2009-10-22T21:40:00.000+08:00

Slept at 6am two nights ago... I don't think I should say why.

Went Sanctuary with Steven Quah ( I prefer calling him Zheng Wei), Je Yue and Michelle. It was kind of boring that's why we got 2nd round at Zheng Wei's house. Raine and Kae Jiunn came along. Suddenly Shinji was there, too. Hmm.

Then,

slept at 6am and woke up for work. Went to college due to some problem around 2pm. Guess who I met?

Aqil, Yan and Izwan !

I miss them a lot but we seldom spend time together already because I seldom go over to PJ nowadays. Sorry guys ! I will make it up very very very soon ! Trust me okayy (:

Went to Asia Cafe last night and then basketball at USJ11. Ahhh, I won, cause I am the hero :p

Now, I finish playing poker and roulette, and got bored again.

Raine told me about the car incident that it did piss me off a little because I hate it when people call me when I am... bored. Yeah, it was totally not Raine's fault in law. What a waste of saliva and time and I thought it was Shinji instead. Who ask him to have such similiar name -.-

According to the law... heh :D

The others is at Asia Cafe now. God knows what they are doing there. And the classmates is at Asia Cafe, too ! But they're much healthy people. Don't ask why.

While I am here, online, because I need to settle some stuff around 10:30pm thus I can't follow. No I am not sad although there's alcohol later *stare cock at Joe

I had a dream of Joe trying to kill Dipsy from Teletubbies. And it was bloody scary I woke up and couldn't sleep back. There's a problem with the "k" key. Hmm.

Anyway, Patrick just called to confirm if I am going this Saturday and yes I am going. I am so proud to say... we have the almost same birthdate :p then he ask if I want to go yum cha and for the 475835834578 times, I can't go out larr unless after 1030pm.

What a boring night.

Good night.

Don’t you ever leave the side of me,

2009-10-22T00:09:00.002+08:00

Every morning, I wish for to wake up seeing a text message from you wishing me good morning. I hope and hope, but it didn't come true. Will I continue waiting?

If you are neglecting things you should be doing, forgetting your purpose in life because of the relationship you're in, then you're on the wrong path.

I was once in the wrong path, and I am so afraid I will do it, again. Obviously I don't want anyone around me to be worry or have a hard time dragging me home, again.

A healthy relationship would probably one in which two people encourage each other to reach their respective goals while sharing each other hopes and dreams. A relationship should be a source of inspiration, invigoration and hopes.

Trying to get in roulette in facebook right now. Only thing I can do other than studying Geography. Am so lazy already and I can't wait to get my baby pink phone - Kiki. It's only coming out after a month or two. Sigh, I don't think I can even wait that long. I'm the kind who is impatient and I want what I want now :| who knows another pink phone coming out?

*glances at Nokia 5230

But the features sucks lah.

Why can't Nokia just invent a few pink phones? With better features?

I was thinking of going Sungai Wang/Lala Land to lalafied the phone to pink but it's not a very good idea after all as if they do it wrongly, there goes my Kiki.

Er yes I just name my future phone Kiki.

Okayy, maybe I should just wait for the pink phone to come out after a month OR two. Or it never will come out? -__________________-

Tomorrow is the night to party till I drop. Won't be coming home thou. Don't think dad will forbid as it's my big day.

My sister was asking mom if she could celebrate for me and :

Hui Shan : But jie jie only drink liquor and beer worrr?
Hui Yun : Then I ask my friends bring beer for her lor ! We can drink together !

Damn cute right :p

I will be staying at home on Saturday afternoon to celebrate with my sisters since they love me so much before heading to Patrick's house for his birthday.

P/s :

I am not obsess with you, Joe !

Oh, I dropped the whole pack of ciggarette down from 13th floor. Amen.

No I am not afraid of the dog -________-

Another,

Happy birthday Zheng Wei !

I am so lazy to find a picture of us which I think we have tons of it. Thanks for everything man. I am attending your party tomorrow. Duh. But leaving early lahh. Behold for the best birthday present, from a friend :p

okayy wtf

2009-10-20T14:51:00.004+08:00

The stupid Raine ask me what phone should she buy reminds me of my lost phone T.T I am so use to touch screen phones I need my 5800 back lah ! Mat fucker stole my phone or I drop it and the fucker took it and act like it's his. I hope he die without peace ! Or fall down everytime he walk wtf whatever I am saying -____________________-

Now, Nokia XXXX is my next aiming although don't have 3G function but do you know there's special color ones !

I swear to God after I buy this phone, I won't bring it to club... ANYMORE.

Or maybe I should get back little baby 5800 :(

Called dad but he never answer !

Okay dad just call me back and he say ok wtf ! I am so happy today ! Facebook sucks cause it says my luck is only 10% today -_________-

P/s : ❥ » * ʙαʙy·яαiиe ʟoνeѕ καe·jıυnи * « says:
*woi dun simply show ppl this phone later all buy then we not special wtf

That's why I can't say what model and what color wtf

I asked 6 people should I buy and 6 of them ask me back how much but the point is not the money ! The point is the phone got "special color" wtf

How?!

Should I buy or not !!!!!!!

Yes or no?!

GANJIONG UNTIL CANNOT SLEEP AND SMILE UNTIL DIE LATER HOW?????!!!

For thinking wtf you wanna tell me.

2009-10-19T08:50:00.002+08:00

fuck you bitch.

2009-10-18T19:50:00.000+08:00

While waiting for underage people to come out.

I pass through so I am not underage. duhhh.

Ryan was insanely crazy enough to open a total of four bottles. Two before and two after. And guess what happen to one of the bottle? Still stuck at Barcelona thanks to the raid last night.

Went for early breakfast later on at some mamak at Puchong and came home around five in the morning.

What exactly happened? Read at Joe's blog.

Guess who lectured me when I got home? Ah, what to do... three days in a row what.

And I don't care if we get the VVIP room in Barcelona because it's nothing special anyway. I prefer outside because the environment is better. The place beside the speaker where there's also sofa seats. Duuuu.

I wonder if the money is back on hand. Hmmm:)

Other than that, a lot of shits happened, too. Which I couldn't care less because it's not my fault I made a promise earlier. I don't give a shit whose big day is it or whatnot because I need a life, too.

Ah, before I end this Barcelona shit, just wanna say that I am not his whatsoever. He just scare I go missing or run upstairs to save the bottle wtf. Can't believe some people can misunderstand me like this. After all the trust we've been through. Aihh.

Next Friday or Saturday; Asian Heritage Row/Poppy/Patrick's house.

Just came back not long ago from Sri Petaling with Micheal, Esther, Teck Yew, Gordon and others. Pictures is with.. err, Esther, I think. So yeahh. I think I got rejected more than 20 times -__________- it's just a drawing contest, can't the kids just bloody join ah wtf

After that we went the housing area and give flyers wtf and got chased by the guard.

I got chased by the dog -_________________-

And a guy say he wants to join our leo club so I gave him Esther's number, ahahah wtf.

down down dee-down down

2009-10-17T16:04:00.003+08:00

MOS last night. Two days in a row man. If tonight we're heading to MOS again then I rather sleep at home. We were suppose to go KL instead but.. err, drama happens lah.

I don't even remember this pictures was taken. Hmm.

After MOS, went down OUG to find Hoeyen because I were... crying wtf. But I didn't realize the car was moving. Lol.

More pictures with Pauline and Joe. Yeah I bump into Pauline at dance floor and we were shouting non stop wtf.

There were event last night and this tall dude was covering our faces when we were taking picture. Wtf damn creepy.

Alah, I damn sleepy now. :\

dilalala

2009-10-16T11:45:00.007+08:00

I lost my phone at Barcelona yesterday.Went Mos earlier.

And guess what? I cry since 3am until now. Never sleep at all, just keep crying. And is still crying.

Whoever who took my phone, even if it's free, I reward you 10k for returning the sim card only.

NO I'M SERIOUS.

Furthermore you can take the phone, I just want the sim card. Because Kenny's sms all inside and it's can't be retrieve already. I don't want to hide nor anything. If you think I dumb, I think you dumber.

PLEASE, just return me my sim card.

I beg you, whoever who took it. I already struggle like hell. I just want back the msgs. And my 400 contacts. It's all my customer's number. I really need it.

repeating this song million times already.

2.07pm
You know what, I don't fucking care anymore. You want that phone, fine, take it. I am glad my dad was angry for a few hours and still ask me what phone I want. But it's okay, it's my fault this time. I drank too much and didn't keep my personal belongings properly.

Fucker, you must be very happy reading all my text messages now. Have fun weh. And also my private photos with Kenny. Very syok right? I wish you all the best in life and go fucking die man. Karma will definitely strike you back.

In my whole life, I found 2 phone at the road side, I return the fucking phone to the owner. And this is what I get.

Fuck.

And also to those I scolded yesterday because of my phone. I am sincerely sorry. Haihh, just that those messages means a lot to me although it's only 3 messages T.T

Dad came back from overseas and bought me absolute vodka :p and bought me Flower by Kenzo. Whole set weh. Flower... Ewwww. I hate flowers. Still, thanks. Although I create lots of problem this week. Hahahh, working, phone, crying non stop, and relationship problem *coughchipmunkscoughtwtf*

I still cannot believe we are still arguing over the chipmunks and mushroom case you know. Too much lor you. Wait my sim card is activated lah you.

-________________________-

Time to go to sleep. I haven't eat till now and although I am hungry, no appetite. Sighhhh. Tonight, KL club. Either Poppy or Quattro. Maybe M-Circle? Hmm. :)

P/s : Am still using same number - 0123057291.

Tanpa cintamu lagi.

2009-10-15T16:27:00.001+08:00

10:27am.
Joe and Allen is asking my lecturer, Mr Patrick, to accept me into the company because I am having problem with my current one. Actually it's my fault but how could she just scold me non stop like that? And then keep on twisting the story and shouting on phone.

I after all also help that company earn quite a lot of money okay -____________- doing all sorts of ground arrangement, extra working time, photostating lame unnecessary thing etc.

First my manager, Ms Tee Yee, call my dad, then Taylors. Then one by one keep calling me. End up I call back Taylors and say I want to change my placement on spot and career centre say I can switch if Mr Patrick accept me.

Mhmm, just hope for the best. If not I rather quit college.

I think Shinji is suppose to wake me up at 8am. I called him once I got scolded and he was like "Sorry I can't wake upppppp" wtf.

Conclusion,

I pay 40k to get scoldings and to work like a dog.

Yes I can get to travel around for free and whatsoever. But I am only fucking seventeen leh bitch. And please lahh, you talk to me in Mandarin of course you win lah. Macaohai. I speak English, she say

"bu yao yong zhe ge yu yan he wo shuo hua"

What to do. Whole company all also no certificate nor a diploma certificate except for Hui Fang. But Hui Fang also uneducated one lah. I don't understand how someone like her who can't speak English AT ALL can finish her diploma in Taylor's.

What? Bu shuang? Never mind la. Can write whatever you like in my report. I don't fucking care wehhh. I cried for 2 hours straight already. Now I just want to sleep. Furthermore I believe Career Centre would understand since the previous student who enter this company got tortured like fuck.

Not to say I won't call and report my... absentees. But I was sleeping ! Sleeping is important. Haihhhh, why don't people just understand.

I AM ONLY FUCKING SEVENTEEN.

1pm.
After all the complaints and crying,

I officially quit working at Globalite Travel and Tours. Fucked up company. I didn't know we're suppose to imitate people's signature. I obviously know that imitating signature is fucing wrong ! I didn't know we're suppose to file in all the paper like that when other company are not like that one.

I don't think anyone in new company would bully me. Because...

I got Joe and Allen ma ! My brothers :p

Just now, went lunch with Hoeyen & Yong Sern then to Starbucks to meet up with Tiffany. Went Rock Cafe with her for her lunch then drove around and here I am, home again.

Mhmmmmm ★

2009-10-14T21:00:00.000+08:00

So bloody upset right now.

Something inside this heart has died

2009-10-14T19:08:00.002+08:00

Follow me at twitter because I am back :p

I told you today is a productive day.

Other than Hoeyen ffk me again ! >_____________>

Jason look damn gay wtf

Passports for sale !

Good night bi.

2009-10-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

My dad called me just because I never reply his sms at 11pm. His reason of not knowing it's 11pm here is so bloody unacceptable, don't you think? After his call at 11pm, I can't sleep already so I text dad and ask why is he so controlling although we're so far away etc. Waited for 5 minutes... no reply then I call him lah ! Since he can call me also what.

What happened?!

Reject my call once ! Kurang ajar weh. I call again ! Then this time he answer and before I even say hello, I start asking why and so on and he say he don't know it's 11pm here ! >_________> Only way is to accept his reason over the phone because calls are expensive ! But he did say sorry lah.

Now I can't sleep ! Arghhhhhhhh fuck the world.

Dad is not usually like this. There was moment before I turn good again that he will never call even if I'm not home at 3am. Now that I became good again, he still don't trust me ! That's what makes me feel like it's no point becoming good. One of my reason why I want to be good is because I don't want my parents to be worry of my again. (I know all of you are touched now)

Well, I'm not bullshitting, because I am bloody serious.

And guess what, I broke my nails when I'm sleeping. Now it's bloody cacated. I am thinking if I should cut it short since long nails are so troublesome and short nails is the new long nails. Wtf am I saying.

May I know what the hell is this? It keeps on pop out like nobody's business and it's bloody annoying it pisses me off and make my mood extra pissing !

No, my period is over already so I don't think it's premenstrual syndrome !

Have you seen the video?! It's awesome pawsome :p

So sad horr the song? Don't cry ok because I never cry. I am so strong *show muscle but muscle become fats wtf

Early evening, went Baskin Robins with the Japanese boy who repeated that his PMR ends today for more than ten thousand times (Shin*cough*ji), Hoeyen and Yong Sern. Went home around 6:30pm and then went for a walk around the residence area until 7pm !

I am so proud of myself. *wipe tears

Shut up, don't call me fat or I commit suicide ! Bwahahahaa, I know you all love me!

Tomorrow is going to be a very productive day. Am going to go work, then, come home at 5:30pm sharp ! Fuck lorr, I am definitely not staying for extra work like usual. I don't fucking get pay man ! Then, cancel my Egypt job (because I don't want to travel to Middle East) and off I go for a jog and then a dinner with Hoeyen, Yong Sern and... the Japanese. Haih I know you all damn sian already because I everyday go out with the same people T.T

What to do, they are my only good friends who don't influence me to the bad side. Minus Japanese.

I decided not to bake any cake because it's not worth it. I hate kitchen and I hate cooking, baking, grilling whatever ling ling ling. So I won't waste my time over someone who will never come back.

Right here, I wish him an early birthday. I thought by smsing him last Saturday will make him a little happier but my wish wasn't welcome either.

Anyhow,

let me call you bi once more before I am ready to accept a new guy in my life, let me wish you one last time, let me be here once more. Bi, happy birthday. May everything you wish for come true and I hope you enjoy your day. I will always love you and you'll always be in my memory. Of course, only the good ones. :)with

out me.

★

Let's fly to our dreams now.

Okay I just saw a bloody mosquito flying pass my eyes and I am so angry already ! Time to sleep inside the blanket before I wake up late tomorrow ! My brother don't help waking me up when mom is not around. Arghhhh, things I want to do before I die in work tomorrow... wake up without mom calling.

2009-10-12T11:20:00.002+08:00

You must thinking... who am I, what do I want, why are you link to me. You will know very soon. I told you, I am not as nice as you think. Revenge is my middle name. Time comes and karma strike you back. I need not do anything except bumping into you in the middle of no where.

I am your sweetest nightmare.

:)

Baby forget about me please.
2009-10-12T03:59:00.001+08:00

Giving all my luck to the little Shinji Sugawara.

If he fail his mathematics paper, I am the one to be blame -____________- I will also blame myself for wasting my few hours life time teaching him wtf. And maybe I should throw my calculator away, too, because he is using it.

Tuning into Orange County.
So I sat there thinking for almost 2 hours wondering what's wrong. If you're angry at me, why can't you just tell me the truth. Why must you act like a big ego. Why did I lie to you. Do I really want to keep you by my side? :\

I am not afraid anymore.

Since you don't have the heart to hold me back, because of your fucking ego which you already promise me not to be like that anymore. Then fuck it. I don't need someone to hold my hand nor a ring by my finger. I don't need an egoistic person like you. What you gonna say again? I am the one who is ego? Hahahaa, I had enough giving in. Now it's the dicks turn to give in.

Go fuck yourself.

Yes I did not answer your call or reply your messages. Did I lie that I went club? I remember clearly that I told you I am going to Cocobanana and you say okay and careful. Why you twisting now? Stupid dumb fuck. Don't want don't want la. I also don't want.

Fuck off.

No more tears at all you dumbfuck.

2009-10-11T20:36:00.005+08:00

Waiting for Shinji to bath and settle his stuff; whatever he meant wtf.

Last night, went Cocobanana and was... err, tipsy. No I am not drunk -__________________-

Thanks Roy for that nice pose with my tipsy picture.

Had a few... errr, really embarrassing phone calls while I am on the way to Poppy from Cocobanana. Which I don't remember what I bullshit or said. I hope I didn't say anything lame or whatsoever. Surprisingly I called Robert when I reach home and told him things I shouldn't tell him. Well, I don't even know him. Hmmm?

I only go club once in a blue moon ok !

Woke up at 1pm, thanks to Allen's call.

For Ina's open house at Shah Alam, Blue Wave. It was a grand one. Everyone was wearing green ! Damn cool right :p

Was suppose to go jogging with Tiffany but I didn't call her because I thought she's busy which she actually was waiting for me ! Sighhhh.

Bath and now is going Mcdonalds.

How's work?
Totally fine except I am not really good with two colleagues of mine. One of them went to Guilin, China, for tour already. I actually hope she don't come back. :| Another one is my manager. She sort of finding fault with me everytime. My hair, my dressing, everything. Now I got uniform to wear. -_______________-

Okayy, that's all for this week.

No more tears.

2009-10-11T19:10:00.002+08:00

I can't find any reason to cry over you anymore. Everything is well said and known.

I had an awesome night. Well, not really that awesome because I met my ex at Coco so off I go, to poppy. When I bump into my another ex again. Hmmmmm. And today, both of them text me.

Will update soon. I love Hoeyen and Yong Sern ! Had been spending most time with them this whole week. Okay fine, Shinji Sugawara, too. Of course, my Tiffany Choe and Koh Leong ♥

Joe, Eyna, Faris, Allen, Belle and Winnie, don't be sad ! I love all of you, too ! Thanks for giving me such awesome Saturday night. *

Zheng Wei's 18th birthday

2009-10-07T22:11:00.003+08:00

Click Here

Glamourous V.I.P Pool party ?!
Free drinks Free food ?

PARTY LIKE A VIP!
StevenQuahZhengWei's illegal 18th ! :DDD

Lucky for Girls , unlimited entries .
For guys , gogo make friends with zhengwei , so that he might put u in the guest list :P
Goodluck eyh ! ;)

Date: 23 October 2009
Time: 6pm-2.30am
Dress Code: Pool Party (Bikini / Shorts)

P/S : I copy the whole thing from Calista's blog.

:p

2009-10-07T01:42:00.002+08:00

Guess who was nervous before PMR?

Shinji Sugawara... wtf?

Good luck for tomorrow, stupid biadap student yg disygi.

Good news, I pass my 1st year end with my 1 month last minute study. Am really happy today and went out yum cha with few people I didn't see for weeks ! Worthy to stay till 1am :)

Something inside this heart has died

2009-10-03T21:19:00.004+08:00

It's been two weeks since I see this two fella !

How to deny I don't miss both of them? ♥

of course I miss my other classmates, too ! The five Maldives dudes, Steph, Ali, Zhafer, Faris and Ina ! Others are abit... inactive in socializing so yeah, don't really miss them tho. They can rot themselves in library. Hahahhaa. (actually just other three)

Anywayyyyy, I had a great night yesterday thanks to that two fella and other few friends. Well, not until I receive a message about a friend got into accident. I kind of cried in public. -_________- thinking he's already dead because Eric Shim said that. I don't remember if it's Justin or Eric who said that but yeah.

Reach home at 5am (bad) and wen to bed straight. Woke up at 8am for internship work and struggled till 1pm and went to straighten my hair again with Tiffany Choe. She wanted to perm her hair when it's still curly wtf

So now here I am, sleepy and tired.

Charity lunch with Islam orphanage & coloring my hair back to red-brown tomorrow morning. Hmmmm, guess I would be going to sleep now since Hoeyen ffk me over others. Emo her kaokao. Might be going yum cha tho with Edward and the others. Also, it's Billy's birthday today. But I don't want to go home after 12am wtf

Happy Birthday Billy lily flower by the way !

:D

Travelling, anyone?

Call me during office time at 0356380698. Just say you're looking for Hui Xian beause there's another person call Grace so I can't be called Grace T.T

I will give you the cheapest price you can ever get and be your tour guide, too. Hahahha or if you don't want me as your tour guide also can *emo tears wtf

So,

Call me and book your ticket to anywhere now !

命中注定我愛你

2009-10-01T20:53:00.003+08:00

All I can say is working is so bloody fun ! Sometimes a little boring but still worthy. How I can pick up the calls and then transfer call to my colleagues. So cool okay :D At least I found out I don't have to wash toilet and in 2 weeks time, if I manage to sell any tour package, I can bring tour out already !

Means, if I sell a Japan package to a family, I can bring tour to Japan but I don't have to explain and talk about the history. Just bring them there and enjoy with them... FOC.

My colleagues is like so friendly I already know all of them. Samantha is so pretty !

I also find out that the cost price for tour is actually super low. Hahaha. Was too free so I went and search for all the cost price and ta dah !

Currently into 命中注定我愛你 drama.

I am too normal to be normal.

2009-09-30T23:40:00.004+08:00

I hate all the SM B13-15a members today !

Because they got bloody premenstrual syndrome but they are humans with dick !

I was so fucking piss off, I blocked Yan and bastard 2 in MSN and deleted Hafis. Yan scolded me... keep asking me to fuck off. For no apparently reason ! Fucking piss off. He can go fuck himself and die. I don't need such friend. I even got the heart to delete him off my contact list now. Just that the phone is too far away from me.

(Note: Actually bastard 2 is bloody innocent but I just feel like blocking him)

I had Jay Chou Bah Kut Teh for dinner. It tasted different already.

Nothing to blog about. I am visiting orphanage home this Friday and Sunday. So charitable. *thumbs up and wipe my touching tears

Starting my internship tomorrow. Yay!

P/s : Okay fine, I just unblock them. But no, I don't feel guilty.

TT

2009-09-30T12:36:00.001+08:00

Actually I feeling a little fucked up because everyone is in internship and I am not. It's like... I quit college and is not going to proceed to my 2nd year for diploma.

T.T

My dad's wife claims herself very busy when she spend 2/3 of her daily lifetime watching Taiwan or Korean (whatever country) drama via youtube.com.

I went out as early as 7pm for dinner and ended up eating outside Mentari Court, my college. After that to drive thru realizing there's no seats. Then at ss15 Mcdonalds teaching Shinji Sugawara science and looking at Hoeyen doing her assignment. The others (all from TBS) was at another table because we're calafares TT

Then, went Asia Cafe for some... problem.

Went down OUG and then to Kepong. Half way got road block. *thumbs up

Came back at 4am and I bloody regreted ! Because after 2 months, this is the first time I come
back after 1am T__________________T don't want to turn back like last time. No, no. I even cutting down ciggarettes, which is a good thing. If people offer me, I try not to take. And I stop buying ciggarettes already.

*thumbs up

But last night was disaster and I shouldn't go home that late laaa. Bloody regret you know. Shinji tag along because he thinks that he have to follow the teacher (me lah). Regret bringing along a 16 years old boy also.

Reach home and talk crap to Hafis and bastard 2 then have to go on phone with someone who thinks that his right hand is not functioning -____________________________- or ask me what is Linear Equation at five in the morning.

Lastly,

Finished !

Overall its so predictable and not nice larr. The fun part is only the Wu Chun guy very handsome.

Who love Wu Chun?
MEEEEEEEEEE.

Who is Wu Chun?
I don't know T.T

wtf

2009-09-29T17:38:00.001+08:00

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Schizoid Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Antisocial Personality Disorder:	High
Borderline Personality Disorder:	Very High
Histrionic Personality Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:	High
Avoidant Personality Disorder:	Low
Dependent Personality Disorder:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Moderate
-- Take the Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Info --

Hmmmm.

Na na na na na na..

2009-09-28T23:41:00.001+08:00

Installation for 09/10 was a success.

With new members coming in :)

Zzzz, I give up uploading the photos. It's so bloody big lah and I'm watching drama in youtube.com, which is adding up the dreadful connection.

And also sending Suwai songs.

Anyway I want to thank John Lim for all the wonderful pictures. Really thankful cause you wake up as easly as 8am and go all the way to Kuala Lumpur with us.

-

Earlier, shits happen.

You know when you try to be nice by sending a wonderful sweet little message to a bastard which I claim him as bastard 2, and he reply the sweetest message ever.

Grace : Have a safe flight and all the best in Sabah (something like that and I think it's sweet)
Bastard 2 : Do I know you? I think wrong message.

My face was like.... WHAT THE FUCK?
Why??!

Cause that's my tactic and he is copying me !

Why again?
Cause for the best 1 whole week, whenever he text me, I will reply

Who are you
I don't know you
Wrong message
Fuck off

And now he is doing this to me! Damn pissing sial. So I say he 'kurang ajar' and he ask me not to use the word cause I don't even know the meaning. And then I use 'biadap' lorr since he took my 'kurang ajar'. Then he call me queen of biadap.

Who more KURANG AJAR now?!

Obviously him right.

The worse part is that I still cannot believe he is mad at me over a fucking bed.

This bed.

Mahai.

Okay so he was sleeping on this bed and I was at the hall when I suddenly feel like puking so I ask Yan to ask him to get lost so I can lay down awhile.

There was another room - Azim's room. But Azim's room was too cold. Like who don't know I am afraid of cold?

So he can just cooperate and get lost right? But nooooo, he did not. Yeah lah, like he care I am going to vomit or not. He can't wait to see I die ma.

So I went in the room and push him and shout until he get lost.

He said FUCK OFF 1st.

Biadap or not?

But since I very sick, I don't care much and lay down. Even fell asleep. But I woke up earlier than him so when he wake up seeing me jumping around the hall and the room is empty. He thought I didn't use the room and was just disturbing him.

Misunderstanding? Yes.

But the point is he never bother asking and just go mad at me.

Ganinehhhh.

Oh now he apologizing cause he say I will never ever mengalah. What kind of apology is that? I don't think I will or considering to accept this kind of apology.

Some more I go wish him have a safe flight. Pfft, I take back my sentences. Aiya, too late already, cause he reach Sabah already. Never mind. I hope orang utan eat him there then :D

Amen.

Walaooooo, I swear to God I don't know who is that TT

What happened to me !!!!!

What the fark

2009-09-28T08:00:00.002+08:00

I just found out that... there's uniform.

What the fuck T.T

I told you they want me to clean their toilet. Haihhhhh.

And now it's 8am and I am sitting here having no clue at all what time is my work. Hahhahahaha. I called Taylor's but they never answer my call wtf they must be late for work. I so shy to call my boss myself. What if she hates me T.T

Then I have to clean every branch toilet wtf

Had an early morning call from Joe just now.

Joe : Wehhhh where are you?
Grace : Sleeping.
Joe : My God ! Today we resit Geography exam lahh.
Grace : * straight wake up *

What the fuck -__________________-

Anyway he's already at office. Air France sial. Proud lah proud lah. Have fun with Mr Patrick while I am free from him. yay me. But I still miss Patrick. Sigh.

Emo :(

:p

2009-09-27T22:40:00.003+08:00

Explain to me again why am I going to work tomorrow?

It's already 28th September 2009 and it's like I just started my college yesterday. All the dramas and havoc I created in college... pfft, unbelievable.

Enjoy :)

And I still think the mosquitoes follow me everywhere I go. Now it's in my house !

Sigh, why oh why.

Aiyoooo, cham, I suddenly feel damn emo. Is it because I am starting work tomorrow already? Haihhhhhh. Or is it because I am thinking too much?

Why they only give me 300 ringgit allowance?!

How to survive like that?!!!!!!!!!

peekaboo.

2009-09-26T00:14:00.001+08:00

Why Teck Yew look so uncute here in this picture !

Never mind :\

Had been MIA for almost a week. Will be back very very very very very soon.

My cleaning toilet job will start next Monday. Sighhhhh. :(

Seriously...

2009-09-19T00:05:00.001+08:00

Was in library after lunch at Red Island Cafe which I can say they can close down sooner or later since their food is tasteless and I need to eat spaghetti
Travel Environment (Geography) almost kill me !

The paper was overall quite hard for me. Maybe because I didn't really put in effort in it. Sigh, as much as I regret it... it's still the past. Let's just hope for the best. :]

Spot my name and the liquid word. Yeah was unbarred and the bitchy lecturer was kind of shock to see me entering the exam room. Hahaha !

Damn Geography. We're over you man :p

Actually I am not really in a good mood now. So I shall just... go to sleep.

Should be celebrating my 1st year of college ended peacefully. But, just doesn't have the mood anymore. I know too much, heard too much and my heart is seriously hurting.

You never be honest to me before. Why? Why are you like this? I always trust you... I told you everything, gave you everything, and even tried to change for you.

I am so disappointed.

yoyo wassup

2009-09-17T14:47:00.000+08:00

Hi I am lala mui mushroom Grace. What's with the fucking mouth right. Diu lor, read lala blog become lala also.

What blog? This. Click here - entertainment of the day.

Never mind. I lala, I happy. You not happy, you go eat mushroom.

Damn like my sister's new pink sony phone. Damn good weh can show my eyes damn big then I won't end up looking like some Cina babi.

Fucked up mom, everyday lecture like fuck. Don't know how to understand I having examination. Like fuck only. Stay at home let her lecture like sohai. Everyday say want to go back grandma there stay but also never go. Only know how to say -_________________-

As if the house no her will die like that.

What is transporter and maid for? Need her meh? Diu... say as if she damn important like that. I think I more important lorr. Without me the whole house damn 7 quiet like graveyard (minus the fucking noise pollution la; e.g. shoutings nags lectures) -__________-

I cannot imagine if I going vacation this whole week.. my only holiday before I have to start work as a toilet cleaner. Actually I am working as Travel Agent at some place (cannot tell later all come disturb me then jiat lat). But right, I doubt they will ask me to manage stuff lah. Sure face problem then ask me clean toilet. So I am a toilet cleaner.

But my vacation haven't confirm laa cause I still stressing about exams now. Stupid Travel Geography paper tomorrow. Don't know I learn Geography for what. I really going to be tour guide meh in the future?!

Whatever lah say I disrespect parents or what also can. Stand in my place only come scold me. Scold me also no right lah. *show middle finger

Currently arguing with Teck Yew over a fucking booklet. I don't feel like going Installation or be the secretary now. Fucked up life.

- -× • 〤○ØnG yew • ×- says:
*your dad ask me dun kacao you
- -× • 〤○ØnG yew • ×- says:
*go go revision bah

Finally something nice happen ! Seriously thanks my dad for this. If not I will commit suicide multitasking all the way.

now the fucking Internet slow like fuck, can't even open my Geography notes. Stupid brother playing WarCraft make the connection damn slow. Fuck DOTA, fuck everyone who play DOTA ! (Including myself, hahaha stupid)

Later around 3pm my sisters friends coming. Worse still. Hope they all shut the fuck up if not I will make them shut the fuck up by stuffing the apple in their mouth. Stupid small bitches. After UPSR say got project to do. I give them left and right for lying then they know. Never mind... I help my sister cover line for once. Maybe next time they can cover line for me also, hahaha. But my sisters damn dumb lah. Always betray me.

* Refer to Nasi Lemak case.

And the fucking Taylor's School of Hospitality & Tourism... barred me from English exam then say cannot make any changes. Dad come straight can make changes.

_|_

Purposely want kantoi me one. Damn sohai lah they all. Paria college. Confirm if they see this sure call me go office again. Fuck laa, every time call me ask me go office like I'm their dog. Cannot come class find me mer -______- I want them to be my cat cause I hate cat.

Cat = my worse enemy

Actually is snake. I dream of snake that day... bloody hell I tell you. Wake up I shiver and almost die. If a robbery want to rob me right, they bring snake I sure give them everything. No need bring knife or gun.

The best thing that happen today, other than dad say don't kacau me? Manage to do accounts without stressing myself. Except when I almost forgot the COGS part, if you get what I meant?

Took me 10 hours to understand the whole accounts. Like bitch weh. I hate accounts. I spend my 10 hours life time doing accounts. Man, why I so semangat!

Anyway I was damn piss off just now I almost slap a few people I dislike - that fucking Malay turtle loser for the first. Since I saw him walking down the hall or whatever that place is called and I was just less than 1km away.

Why didn't I do it? Only know how to say?

Cause I lazy to walk. If he walk to Ram and talk to Ram, who was sitting in front of me... there goes his face - gone. He just came online. Hahah damn long life right. Fucking Malay.

Cannot deny like gay lah his face today. Don't know why we were scandals for a period of time also. No face weh, don't want say already.

What else to complain so that I can release my anger?

Smoking.. kena kantoi by my dad on spot at college man. He will never understand what is my stress la. Haihhh, I already quit smoking one. Can ask like.. everyone? People offer me cigarettes I say no leh. Damn determine lor. Can win the hitz.fm contest shit thing already. Go find yourself.

But then this finals killing my brain cell lorr. Thinking like mad. White hairs also coming out. If I don't smoke I become sohai man. Who knows end up hanging myself to death wtf

Now feel a bit dizzy already. Can die. Lack of sleep some more.

Last night slept at 4am then wake up at 7am for exam. Walao 3 hours sleep only... eyes bengkak like fuck now.

My sister just gave me back my dog - Majolica. She found it at the hall.

Stupid present from my ex boyfriend. Was so happy when he give me last time cause the dog damn cute. But now become black already then become damn ugly so I throw it downstairs, hhahaha. Want to wash it and give orphanage the next time I visit them.

I think nothing else lahh. Other than that my life quite peaceful.

So now, going to go sleep 2 hours maybe? Or study 1st? I think study 1st cause brain cell getting lesser. How? Can transfer intelligence one ah? I want go rob intelligence wehh :D

Like Totally Spies, some cartoon show.

My mom just shout at my sisters :

"WHY YOUR BECOMING LIKE HERRRRRR"

Become like me damn good lah. See I damn independent. Duh -__________- If my sister is half like me, I think my parents would be happier and not that stress. White hairs also lesser. Wrinkles also lesser. That time don't need use SKII already. Automatically no wrinkles.

I Primary3 walk to tuition from condo MYSELF, okay?

Can the sisters do that ah? No then don't talk lah. Be like me is the best lah. Diu, never use brain think.

And fyi ah, everytime also I give you advises / suggestions okay. Without me only your life extra miserable okay. I am the reason why this family is laughing. Don't believe? Look at the mirror and ask.

FUCK WEH, I REALLY NEED A REAL DOG TO RELEASE STRESS.

Don't care weh, I work, get money, buy shihtzu and keep inside my room. Lock my door no one can enter and touch MY DOG. I name is mushroom queen.

P/s : DON'T ASK ME REMOVE ANYTHING FROM THIS POST CAUSE THIS IS MY RANTING POST.

- end of ranting

Accounts is gay, so is Miss Kavitha

2009-09-17T01:03:00.002+08:00

(deleted 1 picture cause Rachael look damn gay inside with her mouth open and peace sign.)

At Rachael's house doing accounts.

Rachael kononnya studying Moral, still same chapter until now.

Sue is still doing her project. With Nick's help.

Wuuuuu, how long more must I suffer from Accounts. Damn hard weh. Worse feeling is that I got barred from English finals when I submitted all my mcs already !

Damn bitchy wehhhh that lecturer. Hope she see this lahh haihhh.

Like a fool

2009-09-16T03:50:00.003+08:00

Grrr, was shouted not once, not twice but thrice in a day.

Bloody piss off until I almost chop someone's head off. Thinking so what if they're having finals? I also having finals, at the same day... just different place only what. And also different course.

BUT IN THE SAME BUILDING!

So I asked,

do I look like some road-side bitch for you to shout at?

Two said no and apologize non stop and another one just stun, because he thought I won't get mad that easily since I am always cheerful. As usual lah, be nice then no benefits one.

Cannot wait for bloody finals to end and relax for whole week before I start my internship - events, traveling, work, money money money. And also relaxing for everyone lah, then back to cheerful moments instead of arguing day till night. All like cannot accept joke anymore, including me.

Just found out no salary given for the stupid internship so I am bloody piss off again.

They're just going to make me work like a fool; wash toilets maybe? Then write bad report about me and send back to Taylor's then I got lecture for nothing.

Stupid internship.

Stupid Nyun Jiang and Sekkai disturbing me in facebook. Diu mou?

What to do?

Ignore them and go to sleep la.

Gonna wake up in 40 minutes to continue study. Time check - 4am sharp.

Obsessed.

2009-09-16T00:05:00.000+08:00

Just woke up and went webcam with baby when I found mushroom in my room and took it up then I got mushroom obsession already. Wuuuu very sad.

Imagine if I am a mushroom and that's my mushroom face.

A very happy mushroom wtf

Changed and everything and went Mcdonalds with Rachael to study.

Yen came after that cause she had some problem back home. Funny one. Lol. Sue came after that, too.

Now I'm at home and I don't think I am sleeping tonight. Lots more to remember and I'm waking Allen up at 4am so he can teach me Patrick's chapter 1 - 3 at 5am, outside college. Anywhere lah.

Currently waiting for my Mcd delivery. Don't ask why I didn't buy before I come back. Duh.

Good luck to those who is having finals tomorrow.

<3

Meet me at the hotel room.

2009-09-15T00:18:00.002+08:00

From left.

Choon Ho, Joel, Yaw Chung, Edward, Teck Yew, Gloria , Hui Jin, Su San
Micheal, Grace, Lion Kenny, Esther, Gordon

Thanks Yi-Vonne for helping us to snap the picture :D

Very first revived Omega Leo Club of Damansara.
--

When it first done.

Process of healing.

Now I feel like tearing my skin off after reading her fucking blog. People do tattoo at the back she also want to do tattoo at the back. Isn't it fucking lucky I didn't do my name at my back which was my very first choice before Raine got hers done.

I don't understand why a lala like her want to fit in the society man.

Bright side,

Larissa came and pick me up from college with her little wira and my big sister, Raine; she just pass her P by the way. Everyone clap hand cause she younger than me but got license already. I emo her. Hahhaa.

We went Sunway Pyramid for lunch at Zan Mai and I bought a blue nail polish thinking it's nice but it's not nice ! I told you we should get the green one. Sigh, emo again.

Tiffany came and bring us to Uptown, Damansara, for dessert later on.

Tiffany, Raine and I.

My little mango ice whatever. The name was kind of long.

And I am very emo now, don't ask why. Maybe I will post about it at my emo private blog. Actually I am more to upset. Maybe I should go sleep and not study.

Maybe...

Finals is in 2 days and I got no blazer and no calculator. Why? Left at friend's house since long ago and haven't take back. Just hope Sam manage to get it back for me and pass it to Yong Sern tomorrow if not I really emo kao kao and straight go to the house only.

-_______________-

Not in a mood to be nice.

Now, I am going to go sleep with my books; expecting it to enter my mind itself.

After finals, I am going straight to find Yan. Because he miss me. If he say no now then that's the end of our friendship.

Then, it's my little installation.

Then, I am free for a week. I feel like going Langkawi ALONE.

No I am just emo. -________-

Do you feel yourself suffocating?

2009-09-14T01:03:00.002+08:00

You are all... invited! Happy or not? :D

I think I have to start forcing people to come for my installation. Mhmm.

I found this really cute thing... well, actually it's more like Edward found this really cute thing while he was googling for Leo Logo pictures in google. Really cute and I want :(

My cup.

The happy girl.

1am and I am heading to bed to continue my beauty sleep soon. Got to start studying hard from tomorrow onwards.

Lately, well, I mean just now, I was doing a little thinking. About all the things we have been through. All the up and down, fights, argument and also involving third parties; causing a craze.

I want to be a friend back with you but just friend. But that is also up to you because I am so tired of your... excuses and flirtations everywhere. You're just another bastard in my mind. Another pathetic jerk.

That's my point of view anyway. And also why everything between us won't work out, anymore. I also hope I didn't know the truth nor telling you the truth, too. We both lied, we both are on faults. We both... are already committing too much and therefore abandon the one we really love since the beginning.

I hope you realize that, too.

Having stomachache and emotional timing. All thanks to accounts and geography ! Just the thought of this two papers is killing me.

Wish everyone good luck in studying... without Semester 1 and Semester 2 notes :p

Good nights ! Got to send one last sms and off I go, dream of happiness, again.

Was she everything?

2009-09-13T05:49:00.002+08:00

Have fun studying when all the notes is gone.

Dad almost got me my long wanted phone... LG Ice Cream.

That's if I sell my current phone away or give it to my sister. Because dad don't want me to have two phones.

So how am I suppose to own a 016 without two phones?!

I want a 016 but I also want to keep my 012 ! How to convince dad? Who can help me can get to touch my LG Ice Cream. Nice deal, right? :D :D

And I also want..

A fat Shihtzu dog.

But dad hates animal ! I used to own like 7 hamsters and one by one... it died.

It wasn't my fault okay. It was the age problem. I remember burying one under the condo I used to stay. And a few in front of my current house. The last was ate by the cat !

Also the reason why I hate cat. Cats are meant to be in jail wtf

If I have the chance, I would choose a Shihtzu dog over a Gucci bag !

I AM SERIOUS.

It says : Yo, I am cool. Adopt me or you're uncool.

It says : Adopt me, I am cute.

I present you...

Remember Pipi? :D

What about Pupi?

And Pipi trying to high 5 with me?

--

Not I don't want to get home early every time I go out. But every time I go out and stay up after 12am, I cannot go home until 5 - 6am.

Every single time.

Yes I am on fire now because I just reach home and it's 6am now. From 1am - 6am I was doing nothing except getting scoldings, walking around OR convincing the fucking police.

Because whatever I say it's pointless which hurts me more than anything !

Finals is next Wednesday and meeting later. Waking up at 10am some more.

Thanks, now I only left 4 hours to sleep and meeting whole afternoon; studying at night for Boey's exam on Monday.

Also the reason why I want to quit liquor, flying carpet and amber. All this is fucking ruining my life, my future...

MY HEALTH.

I doubt I won't scold everyone in meeting later. Zzzz

P/s : I want to thank Andrew for sending me home, sacrificing himself.

Thank Sam for saving my life outside Barcelona.

Thank Zheng Wei for being there.

Thank Edward, Edwin and Wai Hong for helping.

I, I wanna go.

2009-09-12T10:38:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 10am after sleeping for 11 hours.

Slept at 11pm on a Friday night, which is like the once in a blue moon thing when there's so many plans last night but all involve things I quitted. I like to do all this once in a blue moon thing recently. So weird of me :(

Some people ask me to just enjoy life and continue taking things I quitted. Never care about my health one, tsk, so evil.

Now I'm wondering what should I do later? Since I usually wake up at 4pm and then online for 2 hours, dinner with family, and off I go... to meet my friends at Carlo's to plan our night.

Should I ask dad to bring me to dye back my hair color? Or mom to bring me go shopping? Or study for finals? Or... sleep? But I cannot sleep already. Maybe I should start counting how many green stuff I have in my room.

Ahhh, I just realize I am the only one in the family left who haven't finish my 2009 exam !

I turned and walk away, you chase me back awhile but gave up too soon. So whatever to you !

Hope you enjoy your weekend ! :p

Are you feelin’ guilty for what you did?

2009-09-11T22:59:00.003+08:00

Tuning into : Shattered Glass - Britney Spears Feat. Russ Castella

You're gonna see me, in your dreams tonight
My face is gonna haunt you all the time
I promise that you gonna want me back
When your world falls apart, like shattered glass
Glass, glass, glass

Hello,

was expecting to go college for 2 hours just for Mr Boey's exam and off I go... back home to sleep. Why must everyone tell me there's workshop from 3pm - 6pm and it's compulsory! Some more I'm not in formal attire.

On the way to Cheras.

Ended up having lunch at Kenny Rogers, Leisure Mall.
(Like which idiot will go all the way to Cheras just for chicken?!)

With Eyna.

Allen.

And my all time favorite buddy - Joe.

Found an... oversize shades at Allen's car :D

Happy Grace cause get to eat chicken wtf

So earlier just now, I was, err, doing something. Sort of uploading photos from my phone to the laptop when this happen.

-___________________-

I got no idea how this happen as I was away from the laptop. Came back and saw this.

Deleted 200 songs yesterday and today... another 500 over. Wanted to cancel it but suddenly the whole thing just hang and I am very sad now :(

I just uploaded like 34 songs in my phone and I feel so empty!

--

I think I am allergic to woods.

--

WHY SO SERIOUS?
When a friend ask you what are you doing and you proudly say you're stalking my blog and my life. What a group of bastard with pussy. Well sorry, I don't mean to be rude but you're getting on my nerves. I don't want another shit drama, too. Just cause you're like "top hardworking" doesn't mean you guys are everything yo. Save it larr, avg mark still lose to me. Pathetic.

I don't need a ring around my fourth finger

2009-09-10T00:41:00.000+08:00

Best post every because this post is full of...

My pictures !

Actually there's more but I don't want pollute my own blog. :p

Thumbs up for bitches !

2009-09-09T07:13:00.001+08:00

Happy 090909 to everyone. :p

And I'm sitting three assessment today. Two for ticketing and 1 for Mathematics. Wish me luck !

Slept for 12 hours straight and just woke up. Feel so fresh now and luckily I set my phone silence (no vibration too) last night. And silence my msn messenger.

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You know how when I started my form4 studying Engineering in the 3rd class with a bunch of people like me - lame.

We spend most of our time wishing teachers not to enter class, which usually works. Then spend the time decorating everything around us wtf

My table.

I know, damn cute right?

At Chemistry Lab doing Chemistry test.

My little turtle and Patrick.

How I used to bring Hershey's and fried rice to school.

Thanks Kenny Yew for those Hershey's two years back.

My ever first Leo Forum.

Studying Sejarah before the examination starts.

Being lame after school at KFC, Taipan.

Surprising Justine Loi at her house.

Barbecue at Melvin's house.

The time I spend making this name tag -______________-

Problem of being too free.

I can't remember who gave me this. But yeahhh, I think we stole those wire from the laboratory -.-

After work at Summit.

Time I spend writing wtf -_____________-

Sneaking car out and drove to Bangsar when we were just 16.

This was during Physic test when I was too bored since I finish my paper earlier and not allowed to leave the classroom T______________T

Moments while working.

That's why you don't have the right to say I am not responsible nor independent. I started working since I'm 16 and I always wanted to work so badly but wasn't allow.

When I have the chance, my first job was being a salesgirl in a spec shop - Oxford.

I only work when I have the time and it's to improve my experience. I don't need the cash so badly like some people. 10 bucks also cannot take it -____________-
Ow please.

Hahahha why I so childish one last time?

There are more picture but I sort of lazy to save it already.

Good memory good memory *thumbs up

down down dee-down down

2009-09-08T11:35:00.003+08:00

Edited (5:20pm)

So it wasn't an assessment. It was final examination for Mr Scott's class - Travel Destination. The total mark was 70% and 30% for the presentation which is already submitted.

Hahaha, die or not? Since I am always absent from Mr Scott's class and I don't even own any of his notes ! The first and last time I seen his notes is when I was using Azim's laptop and was reading the notes out loud with Izwan. But I manage to finish reading chapter 1 only when Aqil ask me not to read anymore wtf

But what can I say?

It was too easy for me to fail. Hahahhaa!

Finish it in an hour and rush to Block C to submit my Term1 and Term2 result. Taylor's had been calling me since early morning but my phone was off. Damn tiring.

(Larissa, Raine Lee, Grace, Willy, Billy)

The pictures for the karaoke that day is finally up at Larissa's blog.

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Tuning into- Space Cowboy Featuring The Paradiso Girls ; Falling Down

They seem robotic, electronic, melodic, exotic
We like to party with Bacardi, then we dance erratic
And now we're right here on the dance floor having fun
And we ain't stoppin', we keep droppin' till we see the sun

Blood donation event at Jinjang, Buddhist Temple.

Now I'm going off to bath and lunch. Then off to college for Maths and Transportation class.

Wish me luck for assessment !

Forget about us.

2009-09-07T17:00:00.008+08:00

Do you know how pain is my heart now?

I really feel like dying. I'm so fortunate to have everyone around me last night... really thanks a lot. If you guys weren't here, I would be in the newspaper now with the headline;

Girl jump down from building, committing suicide over stupid love.

:(

I don't want to know how much you lie anymore. You can tell my best friend different things about me; and another minute text me asking me to go away. You always say I lie... lie to you. Play your heart. But who is the one playing around?! Who?!

You keep twisting everything you said and I hate it.

I really miss you but I don't want to see you anymore.

Forget about us.

And no, you're wrong. Don't act like you know me very well. Cause if you really do know me, you won't leave me like this. I know I left first, but I was sorry? You never accept my apology before. You never cared. You don't syg me.

I AM SORRY, I AM INDEED VERY TOUGH.

And tougher than you thought.

Ask your friends, stop saying I play you. What love Kenny but like you. I hate that statement you gave me.

For the last time, I don't love Kenny Yew anymore. For all the calls I made to him... wasn't I who call him. People use my phone to call him but he ended up NOT ANSWERING. So I never talk to him!

-___________________-

Fuck.

I had enough. Back to the old me who party day till night but still get good result. Hahahaha I love flying on a carpet and will quit once I found someone who willing to accept me.

I gave you enough chances.

And dad, I know you are always worry of my safety outside and afraid I won't concentrate on my 47k ringgit course. But I will. I did pass my term2 and term1 with good grades right. So don't worry much about me anymore.

I know how to take care of myself.

Edited: (8:30pm)

If you all really want me to be happy. Please leave me alone. I am very upset these days. I don't want to deny and lie to myself anymore.

I admit I am not happy although I had everything.

I will try to make myself happy again and I know I can do it. So just leave me alone and stop questioning me. I don't hate anyone. I am just really disappointed... to myself.

2009-09-06T03:50:00.000+08:00

I know my blog skin very ugly. I don't have the mood to change it as I ruin my previous one when I am changing some stuff. Haihh, fuck it lahh.

With lots of plans today but non catch my brain.

Too much to think about. Mostly about friendship. Lately lots of rumors spreading around and I had been thinking of a right time to do a confrontation towards the main spreader.

Ended up at home.

Raine and Edward was here, too, cause they were too bored and left with no tempting plans. Found Chivas in the cupboard and mix it with grape juice for the fun of it. Wrong combination :p

It's almost 4am now and I have to go Buddhist Temple and Jinjiang for a little charity work at 8am. And later on a long meeting with fellow leos for our incoming installation and year planner. I am really glad that although we just revive Omega Leo Club of Damansara, we already got 22 members from Subang, Kepong, PJ and Kuala Lumpur.

Thanks for all the support, people.

Enjoy the song. ♥

P/s : I never remove you from my favorites before.

P/s ii : Genting tomorrow, anyone? I am really really upset these days and I just need to get out from Subang a moment. And also since Monday is a public holiday.

Nights everyone, is time to dream of happiness, again.

A short update of last night.

2009-09-05T16:06:00.009+08:00

I know those tears that roll down from this eyes are not meant for you anymore.

This time is real. All the best in future.

♥

Last night karaoke session.

More pictures in facebook.com/pinkfeetapple.

Lastly,

Happy birthday Miki Nakano, sister in Japan.

She's also Kiska's mom.

Hellooooooooo.

2009-09-04T15:12:00.000+08:00

It's finally Friday and Monday is a holiday!

I am so happy because I finally get to rest before my finals starts. Finals are on the 16th September and I can't wait for it to end and get out of Taylor’s School of Hospitality and Tourism for 3 months.

I wasn't allowed to do the presentation earlier for English because I was informal. Kind of piss but it’s okay. Esther called half way during class and I went out to talk to her when I bump into someone I never intend to bump into. Sort of ruin my mood a little and all I wanted to do right then was to make myself busy and stop thinking. So I was thinking what I should study tonight. And I think I have to start study about Airlines and Geography. Before that, I have to go out to meet Raine and Edward, my two bffs, since it's been a week since I last see them. I had been occupying most of my time with studies and assignments.

I went for dentist appointment later on since I had been dragging for almost a week already. Did scaling and the dentist say I have to go back after 3 months? :(

No decade found by the way :p

Woke up early after sleeping for only four hours for Boey's class.

Complete a Booking File for the very first time without anyone's help. Zafer was sitting next to me and instead of disturbing him, I helped him. What have I become?!

Very proud of myself :p

And why my eyes still so small!

Booking File!

This was me last night around 2am before I fall asleep in front of the laptop wtf

I actually tried to cook fish ball with oven last night when I found out it’s not working after chewing a roar fish ball. According to baby, I am supposed to boil it instead. Then I ask him to define boiling as I thought we only can boil water but how come can boil fish ball also? He started crapping to me and I don’t know what the hell he is saying so I gave up investigating about fish ball.

This is fish balls.

Last Sunday, went Juara Orphanage Home to visit the orphanage. I went there as the Leo from Leo Club of Damansara… not as Kenny Low’s daughter. Gordon and Teck Yew came, too. Others was kind of busy.

Speaking about Leo Club... installation is coming up and I hope my friends would support me.

Only true friends will support me right? :(

It’s only RM10 per entry and lunch is provided. It will be held at Goldhill, Manjalara.

The reaction from Yan kind of make me disappointed. I mean... I expect him and the others to support me since they know how much hope I am giving this club since the beginning. I even attend Leo School and they were the ones who know about it. They even saw the notes I took down.

Haihhh, never mind.

I am sending invites to Alpha Leo Club of SMK USJ13, Alpha Leo Club of Kepong Baru & Kepong, all Omega Leo Club, soon. And I hope the respond is good.

Especially SMK USJ13.

And at the same time, I welcome Form5 of SMK USJ13 to join Omega Leo Club of Damansara once they finish their SPM. (Hint to Larissa :p)

('.')

I miss you but I can't let you know.

2009-09-03T00:35:00.002+08:00

Edited: (1.55am)

I can't seem to figure out how to do additional mathematics anymore and I was an additional mathematics teacher for Kumon early this year wtf. I guess I became dumb due to all the stuff I overdose at almost every fucking day.

So now, I wish you were here to listen to all my rantings and talk to me.

But I don't think you even bother about me anymore. You can go on and do whatever makes you happy because I heard you're unhappy these days over someone else.

Struggling with mathematics and is giving up very soon. If you ever read this, I hope you will somehow call me and ask if I'm alright.

Like how it used to be. How you used to check my blog and facebook every 10 minutes to ensure I'm okay when we're fighting. Right now we're not even fighting. This is a cold war... and I think I am losing.

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Problem of putting two retards together.

I met someone unexpected yesterday afternoon.

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Had a very tough week going through assignments, presentations, examinations and some more I'm down with flu and cough. Joe say I'm free from fever so I guess I did not get any H1N1 so you guys can stop cursing me in a way by asking me to recover asap :p

*tie up my hair, wear my spec and start studying

Rejected drinking sessions, trip to Genting & Port Dickson and all sorts of fun just for... my incoming finals. This is the 4th day I am studying non stop already. And I finish my English essay and report before everyone! First to submit it but my essay was rejected because I did not do the introduction for it.

But I am still the first.

I even sacrifices my sleep for studies. I was so tired I actually ended up sleep walking which is kind of creepy. Earlier just now before I went out for study session, I was sleeping and calls keep coming in but I did not wake up at all although it was the max volume. Wake up finding 37 miss calls.

T_____T

Too tired.

And now I am going to continue doing my additional mathematics for an hour before I go to bed.
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I do not want to think about you walking towards me or taking me to the places I have never been. I do not want to think about you at night, when no one is thinking of me. I do not want to love you, so I am giving you to the other girls; they can have you and the sun that smiles down on you, they can have you and the sky that opens for you. They can have you, and they can keep you.

I’m sorry I didn’t know I loved you then.

I’m sorry I broke you;

I miss you so I guess we’re even.

But now it's over.

2009-09-01T02:33:00.005+08:00

Tuning into : Love Drunk ; Boys Like Girls

Because it resembling my feeling towards you.

No matter what I said earlier or yesterday, at least you know I was once yours. At least I choose you over him before. At least... we once so loved although it was only awhile.

Don't get hurt towards what I said anymore. I'm not sorry for what I said because you started it. But I don't want to see you like this.

I can't go back to you anymore. The decision I made is final and there's no turning back. I learn that from you. I never say I want him back either... it was all you and your friends assumption. No matter how much I still love him, what's gone, gone?

Even if I turn back... the feeling is different already.

You didn’t do anything wrong; so stop asking me what you did. I just… can’t take it anymore. I can’t take another heartbreak even though you say it won’t happen. Hahah, I just know it will happen one day. I cannot accept it so might as well end it earlier.

Well, all the best to you. What’s done, done. I hope we're still friends :]

My very first video :p

But I think it's still processing. Chill lahh !

Indonesia ftw.

2009-08-31T21:52:00.002+08:00

Because you're just like the dota game I won. So why can't you just leave me alone and be yourself again? You were so happy before :]

To me, you're nothing.

Hi world. I am currently at ss15 Canai doing my lame assignment with the lamest connection ever.

Damn slow until my mom also cannot recognize :]

Bye I need to continue stalk Indonesia. I will update later.